{"id":1284,"date":"2012-01-31T23:58:47","date_gmt":"2012-01-31T23:58:47","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/occamstypewriter.org\/sylviamclain\/?p=1284"},"modified":"2012-02-03T11:30:29","modified_gmt":"2012-02-03T11:30:29","slug":"its-in-my-guilt-box","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/occamstypewriter.org\/sylviamclain\/2012\/01\/31\/its-in-my-guilt-box\/","title":{"rendered":"It&#8217;s in my guilt box&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>A variant on the impostor syndrome (<a href=\"http:\/\/occamstypewriter.org\/athenedonald\/2012\/01\/29\/what-am-i-doing-here\/\" target=\"_blank\">as blogged by Athene Donald<\/a>)<\/p>\n<p>A few weeks ago I bumped into one of my colleagues at the University &#8211; he is in a different Department and is a young (ish) PI like myself.  I had sent him an email which he hadn&#8217;t had the time to respond to.  So he says <em>I am so sorry I&#8217;ve been meaning to respond, I will soon, its in my guilt box<\/em>.<\/p>\n<p>I know how he feels.<\/p>\n<p>I have grants I need to finish, grants I need to start, papers I need to finish, research I need to start, students I need to talk to, a lab I need to finish building, a group to run, data analysis I need to do, meetings I need to go to, seminars I need to attend, talks I need to write.  My guilt box is overflowing at the moment.  <\/p>\n<p>Its not that I am not getting anything done, I am, but one of my mental curses is that I never feel like I am getting enough done &#8211; its just that in my new role this feeling has grown from a low-level background growl to almost overwhelming, like some strange Dantean gluttony punishment, and like my Aunt Helen would&#8217;ve said &#8216;looks like you plate done disappeared&#8217; <\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/1.bp.blogspot.com\/_WPsDsra0ghg\/THPg7hRpn0I\/AAAAAAAADII\/qg2jcoBNPus\/s1600\/gluttony22.jpg\" alt=\"Full plate\" \/><\/p>\n<p>So what I am I doing blogging?  In fact what I am doing not working ALL OF THE TIME.  This can&#8217;t be normal. <\/p>\n<p>Everyone else seems so calm.  <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>A variant on the impostor syndrome (as blogged by Athene Donald) A few weeks ago I bumped into one of my colleagues at the University &#8211; he is in a different Department and is a young (ish) PI like myself. &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/occamstypewriter.org\/sylviamclain\/2012\/01\/31\/its-in-my-guilt-box\/\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":16,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[177],"tags":[321,178],"class_list":["post-1284","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-impostor-syndrome","tag-impostor-syndrome","tag-science-research"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/occamstypewriter.org\/sylviamclain\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1284","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/occamstypewriter.org\/sylviamclain\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/occamstypewriter.org\/sylviamclain\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/occamstypewriter.org\/sylviamclain\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/16"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/occamstypewriter.org\/sylviamclain\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1284"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/occamstypewriter.org\/sylviamclain\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1284\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/occamstypewriter.org\/sylviamclain\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1284"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/occamstypewriter.org\/sylviamclain\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1284"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/occamstypewriter.org\/sylviamclain\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1284"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}