DIY, You Are Dead To Me

For reasons with which I shall not detain you, I have been trying to hang a door in the interstices of the Maison Des Girrafes. The door frame exists, so I needed to find a door to fit.  That’s when Mrs Gee and I went to our local Boutique de Bricolage to buy a cheap internal door – one of those lightweight ones made from pressed hardboard panels on a timber frame.

I have hung doors before. I have even made doors. I have fitted door furniture. Easy, and, moreover, Peasy.

The task fell to me to make the door fit the frame. I sawed a bit off the bottom. I sanded. I sanded some more. I brought the door from my workspace (in the garden) to the doorframe (upstairs, round several tricky corners). It didn’t fit. This went on for quite a few tries, stretching over several days. Or weeks. My obsession with this door started to build.

I bought a new electric sander (my old one having conked out long ago). I even bought an electric plane. More tricky trips up and down stairs, It still didn’t fit.

This weekend I decided that enough was enough. I planed and planed and sanded and sanded and planed and sanded with fierce determination in the hot sun. I wasn’t putting up with any more nonsense from this door. Oh joy! The door fit the frame — just.

That’s when I decided to rebate the butt hinges into the frame. Realising that I no longer had a chisel, I repaired straightway to above-mentioned Boutique de Bricolage to buy a new one, clean and sharp. Hinges fitted. No problem! Door fitted. Slightly more of a problem, as it’s hard to keep the door clear of the floor when screwing in the hinges. A few shims of scrap wood under the door, and the help of Offspring#1, and it was all done.

And, what do you know, the door swung freely on the hinges. Wonderful!

Except… Ninety-five per-cent shut, and I couldn’t open the door again. It had become snagged on our uneven flooring, something I hadn’t factored in. I was stuck upstairs. With the help of Mrs Gee passing me tools through the gap on the other side, I wrenched the door free.

As a result of all this palaver I suffered heat exhaustion, with the dehydration, headaches and nausea that goes with it. Two days later I am still slightly unwell.

As for the door, it now stands fully open with a notice attached that reads something like

DO NOT CLOSE THIS DOOR. The last time this door was closed was 30 February 1739. The Consequences of that Event are Too Dreadful to Relate.

It’s clear that I need to remove another centimetre or so from the bottom of the door. This will mean taking the door off the hinges, taking it downstairs and working on it again, presumably with many more futile trips too and fro. Whether there is a centimetre of internal frame left to remove is another matter – the door might be rendered useless in the process.

But that will be for another day. Or week, Or month.

For now, all I can say is this: I fought the door, and the door won.

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What I Read In July

UntitledSteve Brusatte: The Rise and Reign of the Mammals The ink hardly dry on his bestselling The Rise and Fall of the Dinosaurs (which I reviewed here) palaeontologist Steve Brusatte returns with what can only be the natural successor. It’s an odd thing, that compared with dinosaurs, fossil mammals seem strange and remote to us, when we are ourselves mammals, and mammals outshine dinosaurs in every way. Mammals evolved at around the same time as dinosaurs, and, after a slow start, diversified into forms both smaller than the smallest dinosaur and larger than the largest. Blue whales are mammals: the largest have a mass of 110 tons and can exceed 30 metres in length, making them the biggest animals that have ever lived, bigger than the whoppingest dinosaurs, and unlike dinosaurs they are alive now. ‘How glorious is it that we breathe the same air as a blue whale, swim in the same waters, and gaze at the same stars?’ says Brusatte. Whales rule the waves, which dinosaurs never did: bats, in contrast, have conquered the air, which dinosaurs only did when they became birds. And mammals have produced humans, the only animals which, as far as we know, are capable of reflecting on their own existence. And yet Brusatte has a mountain to climb, acquainting readers with a welter of unfamiliar extinct animals, the ancient cousins of mammals. It says something about the popularity of dinosaurs that one of these, Dimetrodon, is regularly grouped in the popular imagination with dinosaurs, a case of palaeo-cultural misappropriation if ever there was one. And there is rather a lot about teeth. Yet Brusatte’s enthusiasm surmounts these challenges, interspersing anatomy lessons with evocative you-were-there descriptions of life at various key stages in mammalian history — and a lot of anecdotes from the life of a field worker. My favourite was the tale of when, after an exhausting and mostly fruitless day prospecting in the backwoods of Poland, filthy and sunburned, Brusatte calls in on the veteran palaeontologist Zofia Kielan-Jaworowska — and is greeted by her ferocious Pomeranian, which fastens its efficiently mammalian teeth into his leg. I should say at this point that other books on the evolution of mammals are out there. Beasts Before Us by Elsa Pancirolli covers the same ground (according to the blurb – I have not read it). And Brusatte’s comprehensive notes don’t mention a wonderful recent book on Ice-Age mammals, Vanished Giants by Anthony J. Stuart. DISCLAIMER: This review is based on advance uncorrected proofs sent by the publisher.

UntitledAlastair Bonnett: Off The Map Here on the Norfolk coast I am always searching for new beaches to explore. Norfolk is a big county, and has lots of beaches, and there are still beaches which one can have more or less to oneself, even at the height of the summer. It had always occurred to me that there seemed to be no access to the beach on the fairly long stretch of coast between the villages of Overstrand and Mundesley, so I went looking for it — on Google Earth. Near Trimingham I saw, as if from space, a collection of cars parked neatly just next to a wide sandy beach. How had I missed this? Tracking back, I saw that it was accessible via a dirt road, so I set out in the car to find it at ground level. A turn-off from the main road led to the potholed dirt track, and I could immediately see why I’d have missed it before: the turn-off was headed with a large sign that said (now, I might be paraphrasing slightly)

TRESPASSERS WILL BE SHOT

with the subheading

SURVIVORS WILL BE SHOT AGAIN.

Naturally I decided to explore further, and at the end of the track found a car park maintained by the local council, and meant for public use, for all that the car park was free (a novelty), with easy access to a wide, sandy beach. Ever since then it’s been our favourite beach for walking the dogs. Although — it must be said — quite a lot of other people know about it (it is adjacent to a modest caravan site) part of the charm of this beach is that it’s in some way a secret, and belongs to us. This creates a camaraderie between the users of the beach, no matter how transient they may be, that is absent from beaches that are more generally accessible  and which have better facilities (no ice-cream van has, in my recollection, braved the potholes down to the beach, which is also sans beach huts, sans caff, sans shop, sans public loo, sans nearly everything).  By being slightly off the beaten track, it has become just that little bit special. No, I am not giving you the co-ordinates. That a sense of place has meaning to human beings is the theme of this charming book, which, in its collection of 47 cartographic oddities, is an appeal to the importance of topophilia – a love of place. Failure to recognise this leads to consequences that vary from the amusing to the tragic. Among the motley collection of locales is Leningrad, a kind of alter ego to St Petersburg; the two fractally intertwined villages of Baarle-Nassau and Baale-Hertog, one in Belgium and the other in the Netherlands, each no more than a doorpost away; and the multiple enclaves-within-enclaves of the Chitmahals between India and Bangladesh whose inhabitants suffered discrimination from both states (a situation resolved in 2015, after this book was first published). One is reminded of China Miéville’s urban fantasy The City and the City, in which two entirely different cities share the same space (indeed, the author mentions this book). There is the urban landscape of Bonnett’s native Newcastle known only to foxes; the lay-bys known only to doggers; and Sandy Island, a sandbar in the South Pacific known only to cartographers, but which doesn’t actually exist at all. Through it all is a sense of regret that our sense of place has been replaced by a preoccupation with the journey. Old Mecca, for example, has largely been demolished, consisting mainly of the Grand Mosque where pilgrims gather, and the hectares of parking lots and hotels required to accommodate them.  And there’s a parking lot at Los Angeles International Airport (LAX) that is a shanty village of campers that house the often transient airline staff, but with no power or running water. At the opposite extreme are the luxury cruise ships that have become a home from home for the super rich. Everywhere — but nowhere. A poignant read.

UntitledAlastair Reynolds: Bone Silence The astute reader will note that I reviewed a Reynolds last month. That one, Inhibitor Phase, from his Revelation Space universe. Bone Silence, though could hardly be more different. It is the final part of a trilogy (the first two are Revenger and Shadow Captain) and although it stands alone, it does so only just. I had read the first two and although I only had vague memories of them, I wonder if I’d have struggled without having done so. The scene is our Solar System but as you’ve never imagined it. Ten million years in the future, all the planets have been broken up into a ‘congregation’ of twenty thousand worldlets. This is a brilliant conceit, for it means that the spaceships that ply the worlds can be powered by solar sails, passage can take weeks or months, and Reynolds can make the destinations as exotic as you like. A kind of steampunk humanity bustles in the busy worlds along with a welter of exotic aliens. Piracy thrives, so the atmosphere is very much Pirates of the Caribbean in space. The entire economy is based on ‘quoins’, mysterious artefacts of alien manufacture not originally meant to be used as currency, that must be ‘mined’ from other small worldlets or ‘baubles’, often booby-trapped. Only the bravest crews get to go bauble-hopping. Another piece of background — we find this Universe during the ‘Thirteenth Occupation’ , the thirteenth time civilisation has risen from a previous dark age. Enter Adrana and Arafura Ness, two spoiled little rich girls from the worldlet of Mazarile, who in Revenger get a thirst for adventure and, trying to slake it, get more than they bargained for. In Shadow Captain they subdue Bosa Sennen, a formidable Pirate Queen, and Arafura especially takes on some of her personality. At the end of Shadow Captain the pair, through some mishap, trigger a change in the quoins such that they depreciate in value, precipitating an economic crisis. Bone Silence finds them having to take a mysterious alien to the remote and moderately lawless world of Trevenza Reach (a wonderfully piratical-sounding faux-Cornish name, for all that it’s more like 1930s New York) pursued all the while by a ruthless fleet of Revenue cutters. The space battles that ensue are terrific and the Pirates-Of-The-Caribbean parts of the book are hugely enjoyable. But as the action unwinds the preoccupations grow more and more existential, as the sisters wonder what quoins really are; why there have been thirteen occupations, and much else. The closing section turns from Pirates of the Caribbean to Rendezvous with Rama, and although the Clarkeian confrontation with vast, ancient artefacts is well handled, the contrast and change of pace seem jarring. Another fault is that after a long build-up the ending seems far too hurried, as if Reynolds were struggling with a deadline, or just wanted out. ‘I am, for the time being, done with the Ness sisters’, he admits in an afterword, though ‘[w]hether they are done with me remains to be seen’. In some ways I am not surprised, for his characters do like to talk. And talk. And talk. Perhaps Reynolds craved some of the silence the title promises.

UntitledFrank Close: Elusive I love maths. My problem is that my adoration is unrequited. It took two goes for me to get an A-level grade sufficiently adequate to permit me to attend university. Since when I have been on an endless quest for enlightenment that relies on science writers such as Simon Singh (Fermat’s Last Theorem), John Gribbin (In Search of Schrodinger’s Cat), Brian Clegg (The Quantum Age) and Ian Stewart (Calculating the Cosmos), to name but seven four three, the result of which is to increase my ardour though not necessarily my understanding, which is of course not the fault of any of these stellar writers, and I have to say this as some of them are my friends. It was John Gribbin who alerted me to the tome currently the focus of our attention, as he’d reviewed it in the Literary Review, the only periodical to which I subscribe (and my subscriptions in the past having been eclectic – from Interzone to The Spectator to Classic Rock, all now lapsed) and I was so enamoured that I decided to buy a copy. But I digress. Elusive is an account of the shy, retiring theoretical physicist Peter Higgs and his invention (I use the word advisedly) of the fundamental particle that, by a curious set of circumstances, one of which depended on an editorial mis-citation in the references of another paper, bears his name. It is by Frank Close, a physicist who knows the subject personally, as well as being conversant with all the technical details, so this is as close to the equine anterior orifice as one is likely to get (see Brian Clegg’s interview with Frank Close here). And it’s a gravitationally attractive read. Peter Higgs (born 1929) is, or was, just a regular working theoretical physicist who happened to have a remarkable insight. Building on work he knew about elsewhere — he had rubbed up against a smattering of other work from molecular biophysics to superconductivity, showing that it pays to read widely outside one’s field — he posited the existence of a quantum field which, through the agency of its associated particle, conferred on all other particles the property we know as mass. In a long professional life in which he published rarely, he formulated his idea and published it in a rush during the summer of 1964. Close reprints Higgs’ two main papers at the end of the book, and it is fair to say that they will be incomprehensible to those of us who never got around to Lagrangians and Fourier transforms and other whatnots of advanced mathematics and so leave us mere mortals gasping at the extreme cleverness of those who have. Close then takes up the story of the massive engineering marvel that is the Large Hadron Collider, whose work finally revealed that Higgs’ boson wasn’t just a mathematical trick, but a real thing — testament again to the wonderful fact that natural phenomena completely outside our range of experience can be expressed in mathematical terms, no matter how abstruse. (It’s amazing to think that the discovery was made ten years ago. I could have sworn it wasn’t as long ago as that, perhaps my impression has been distorted by relativistic time dilation). The particle was elusive as the man, who, a stranger to email and mobile telephony as giraffes are to unicycles, contrived to be out of town when the Nobel Committee announced he was a winner. I wonder if anyone has noticed that the cover photo shows Higgs not writing on the blackboard with chalk (the way that twentieth-century theoretical physicists used to get their exercise) but rubbing things out with an eraser. The confirmation that the Higgs boson exists was the capstone of an era, as it completed physicists’ collection of fundamental particles in what is known as the Standard Model. The problem is what physicists will do next. It took half a century of effort for experimental physicists to confirm the existence of the Higgs particle, and even then they had a good idea where to look. Now that it has been found, it raises many questions that remain unanswered, and may remain so, for to shed any light on, say, why the Higgs boson confers precisely the masses it does on particles (I mean, why is the muon 207 times the mass of its lighter sibling, the electron, and not some other value?) and whether the Higgs boson might have any bearing on other abiding mysteries, such as the nature of dark matter; the proposed Inflationary Era early in cosmic history; or the existence that defies all logic of the Republican Party, would require machinery of a power that would defy current engineering prowess, not to mention budgets, even if physicists could draw up a blueprint for a machine that had any target in view whatsoever. No wonder that theoretical physicists are now in the doldrums, at least according to Sabine Hossenfelder in her book Lost In Math (one of my hits from last year). With no experiments in view, or even possible, they resort to a kind of doodling in which to create equations that are aesthetically pleasing is seen as an end in itself.

UntitledJames White: Star Surgeon This is one I picked up secondhand after fond memories of reading James White’s work many, many years ago. It was very enjoyable, but really hasn’t aged well. James White was an SF author, originally from Northern Ireland, best known for his novels and stories set in a gigantic space hospital called Sector General, and starring a Doctor Conway – a human physician in a medical environment that includes a dazzling array of wonderful extraterrestrials, all living in a milieu that’s peaceful and cooperative. Conway’s special friend is a Dr Prilicla, a grasshopper-like creature from a low-gravity world constructed so delicately that it might be crushed by a pithily-worded comment — which is unfortunate as Dr Prilicla is strongly empathic. Star Surgeon, first published in 1963, is the second such adventure, after Hospital Station, but each can be read alone. In this story the hospital comes under attack from a vengeful power due to a series of misunderstandings, and the ever-resourceful Conway has to solve the various problems that come up. It’s a ripping yarn, but it is strange that in a setting in which the riotously diverse extraterrestrials are treated as human beings rather than as monsters,  the same enlightened attitude isn’t extended to the other members of the human contingent. All the humans are white (as far as one can tell), and all the important ones are male. The human doctors are all male — the human nurses all female, and are referred to as ‘girls’ who shouldn’t ‘worry their pretty little heads’ about anything consequential. To be sure, one could dismiss this as typical of the times. But darn it, it kept tripping me up and spoiled what might have been a stellar reading experience.

Screenshot 2022-07-14 at 21.11.25Robert Harris: The Second Sleep Imagine that you are the novelist Robert Harris, who, having lately returned to your home turf of historical fiction closely based on World War II (Munich) has your previous novel Conclave fresh in your mind (a novel I reviewed here). Christian iconography ripples through your subconscious. It’s then that you look at the back of your iPhone and what do you see? An apple with a bite taken out of it – as symbolic of Man’s First Disobedience as anything could be. Being Robert Harris, you plan your next novel, and the result is The Second Sleep. This is one of Harris’ rare excursions into SF. Whereas Fatherland was alt.history (set in 1960s Berlin in a world where Hitler had won), The Second Sleep takes place in a rustic, cleric-dominated England eight hundred years after an Apocalypse of unknown nature. The Apocalypse, it seems, took place when as a result of some unspecified problem, the world’s computer systems all crashed, taking the world’s financial systems with them. The ancients, you see, back in 2025, had long since traded the rustic solidity of stone and bullion for rusting steel, breakable glass, and money as evanescent as electrons. They were paid in electrons for doing jobs as vaporous as smoke – programmers, marketing executives, web designers. And what with the population of London reliant on just-in-time food supplies — dependent on those same electrons — and yet completely unable to fend for themselves, catastrophe is swift and savage. In our bucolic future England, though, pulled up by its bootstraps by the Church (country churches having been  among the few buildings that survive from age to age) and in which inquiry into the ancients is a sin, we find Christopher Fairfax, an impressionable young churchman sent to bury the vicar of a remote village who has died in suspicious circumstances. It seems that the vicar had had tastes towards the antiquarian, and the young Fairfax gets sucked in, with dreadful consequences. The Second Sleep therefore joins the shelves of the post-apocalypse novel, especially popular during the Cold War, examples being such titles as Earth Abides, and — the apotheosis of their zenith — A Canticle For Leibowitz. But where the peerless Fatherland, an alternative history, is firmly grounded in Harris’ deep knowledge of the Third Reich, The Second Sleep, while still a cracking read (which one expects from Harris as a bare minimum) is somehow rootless, lacking the mythic depth of Canticle and others of the genre. It also winds up far too quickly. Perhaps Harris felt a deadline looming. Not one of his best, I fear.

UntitledEdward Gibbon: The History of the Decline and Fall of the Roman Empire: Vol I, The Turn of the Tide. Edward Gibbon was born in 1737, the eldest child of seven. He was very sickly, but healthier than his other siblings, all of whom, along with his mother, had died before he was ten. Nurtured by an indulgent father, he went on to make history. Literally so, for Decline and Fall represents the model that all other histories were to follow.  This is Volume One of a handsome eight-volume Folio Society set I picked up cheaply on eBay. Gibbon originally published the work in six volumes, so my Volume One isn’t quite as extensive as his Volume One. (It also leaves out almost all his footnotes – which is understandable as there were more than 8,000 of them, apparently). Gibbon’s first volume was published in 1776, the year that the U. S. declared itself independent, and covered the Roman Empire from its height under Trajan (98-117CE) to Constantine; my Volume One only gets as far as the accession of Diocletian (284CE). Although a quarter of a millennium old, and probably less useful as history than it once was, it excels as literature, and is as worth reading today for enjoyment as, say, Bede’s Ecclesiastical History of the English People — which is, of course, very much older than that. Gibbon’s hero and main source, for the earlier parts, is Tacitus, though for much of the rest the sources are French. Gibbon was educated in Lausanne and imbibed the best that the French enlightenment had to offer, from Montesquieu to Voltaire. Gibbon actually preferred to write in French, and it is probably thanks to the advice of his friend Hume that Decline and Fall was written in English instead. And what glorious English it is – as elegant, as well-proportioned, as satisfying to look at, as a Georgian rectory. His prose is so lucent, in fact, that one critic (and I agree) said that one is likely to be carried away on its rolling cadences such that one has to go back to discover its sense. Everywhere Gibbon shows his gentle and humane irony, his understated humour, such as here:

Artaxerxes had served with great reputation in the armies of Artaban, the last king of the Parthians, and it appears that he was driven into exile and rebellion by royal ingratitude, the customary reward for superior merit. (p188)

and here:

The revolt of Saturninus was scarcely extinguished in the East before new troubles were excited in the West by the rebellion of Bonosus and Proculus in Gaul. The most distinguished merit of these two officers was their respective prowess, of the one in the combats of Bacchus, the other in those of Venus… (p297)

and here, describing the talents of the younger Gordian:

Twenty-two acknowledged concubines, and a library of sixty-two thousand volumes, attested to the variety of his inclinations, and from the productions which he left behind him, it appears that the former as well as the latter were designed for use rather than ostentation. [in a footnote he adds] By each of his concubines, the younger Gordian left three or four children. His literary productions were by no means contemptible. (p171)

The prose seems so fluid to the modern reader, his politics so contemporary (an old-fashioned Liberal, or Whig, he found beneficient despotism preferable to what he called ‘wild democracy’, what we would call ‘populism’), his religion so sceptical (he finds much to praise in the tolerant polytheism of the Romans, contrasting it with the intolerance of the Christianity which he sees as one of the causes of Rome’s downfall) — that one is brought up with a start by the general ignorance of the times in scientific knowledge. In a footnote on a passage on the litany of animals killed by Commodus in the arena:

Commodus killed a camelopardalis or giraffe, the tallest, most gentle, and the most useless of the large quadrupeds. This singular animal, a native only of the interior parts of Africa, has not been seen in Europe since the revival of letters, and though M. de Buffon (Histoire naturelle) has endeavoured to describe, he has not ventured to delineate, the giraffe. (p106)

From this one infers that Gibbon had never seen a giraffe – something that we take for granted. Although giraffes were present at the court of the Medicis in the 15th century (Gibbon seems ignorant of this), the arrival of a giraffe in France in 1827 — long after Gibbon’s time — caused a sensation. And in the 18th Century, nobody knew anything about climate change, or Ice Ages:

Some ingenious writers have suspected that Europe was much colder formerly than it is at present; the most ancient descriptions of the climate of Germany tend exceedingly to confirm their theory. (p202).

As to the reasons for the decline, they are various. Gibbon goes back to the foundation of the Empire under Augustus, in whose person combined the offices of tribune and consul – hitherto kept separate so the former could act as a check on the latter. Absolute power led all too often to tyranny. This did not sit well with the fact (mostly honoured in the breach) that the position of Emperor was still nominally a post conferred by the Senate — a solid hereditary foundation might have allowed for a measure of stability. As time went on, Emperors tended to be imposed on the Senate by a fractious and divided military. Here, on a rare instance of agreement between the Senate and the army:

… nor, indeed, was it possible that the armies and the provinces should long obey the luxurious and unwarlike nobles of Rome. On the slightest touch the unsupported fabric of their pride and power fell to the ground. The expiring senate displayed a sudden lustre, blazed for a moment, and was extinguished for ever (p288)

Those who found themselves Empurpled dreaded the inevitably gory death that awaited them an a year or two, but found themselves powerless to resist the mob:

If the dangerous favour of the army had imprudently declared them deserving of the purple, they were marked for sure destruction; and even prudence would counsel them to secure a short enjoyment of empire, and rather to try the fortune of war than to expect the hand of an executioner. (p.251)

Another reason for the decline was the decision by Caracalla (198-217) to make everyone in the Empire a Citizen of Rome. Although this sounds an estimable plan, the motives were governed more by the need to raise taxes than by an urge for equity. But if everyone’s a somebody, then no-one’s anybody, and any Thomasus, Dickus or Harrius could find themselves on the throne regardless of merit, and just as soon deposed. And before one thinks that Gibbon’s condemnation of Caracalla’s move was that of an elitist snob, our thoroughly modern Mary Beard decided to end SPQR, her history of the Roman Empire, at that point.

Reading Decline and Fall is like indulging in a particularly rich and delicious chocolate cake. A slice is nice. Two slices are nicer. But being force-fed the whole cake will make one sick. Therefore I shall leaven my reading of the subsequent seven volumes with literature of a quality that is, if not lesser, at least different.

UntitledThe Rev. Richard Coles: Murder Before Evensong Old-fashioned whodunits seem to be de rigeur among the celebrati, and hot on the heels of The Man Who Died Twice by Richard Osman, you know, the Man on the Telly (reviewed here), comes this from Britain’s best-known celebrity cleric. The first rule of writing is Write What You Know, so it’s no surprise that the protagonist, like the author, is a somewhat high-church and deeply learned vicar who keeps dachshunds. This (the churchy part, not necessarily the dachshunds) allows the author to tap into the rich tradition of clerical sleuthery from Father Brown to The Canon in Residence, notwithstanding inasmuch as which the Stephen Capel mysteries by my friend B. C. of Swindon, and, through that, into the well-worn tradition of traditional English whodunits. For this one has everything: the gossipy country village setting; the manor house; the relics of the class system; a large cast of stock characters from the shifty gamekeeper to the battleaxe who runs the Flower Guild; the flinty old spinsters who were in service at the Big House as young women, and so on. It also cleaves very much to the formula — a welter of seemingly unrelated events compost in the protagonist’s mind until he has that blinding flash of inspiration when everything comes together, swiftly followed by a dramatic denouement, and a coda in which several of the main characters get together to sum things up. It’s also a period piece, set in 1988, when home computers and mobile phones (the scourge of modern crime stories) were expensive novelties – but it also allows for people who were young in World War Two to be still alive and kicking. And, not to spoil things, but events that happened in that late unpleasantness bear strongly on the course of this story. It’s not as  much of a page-turner as Richard Osman’s whodunits, but what it lacks in zip it more than makes up for in richness, depth and darkness [now you’re sounding like an advert for coffee — Ed]. DISCLAIMER: Although I have had the pleasure of the acquaintance of the author on several occasions, I bought my own copy.

UntitledRay Bradbury: Fahrenheit 451 I found this lovely 50th-anniversary hardback on the shelves of Offspring#1. (The link takes you to a different edition). Neither of us could remember how it got there. Offspring#1 suggests I bought it for them many years ago. I’m amazed I’d never read the book before, though I have very, vague memories of a movie version starring Julie Christie. Now, that takes me back. Written in 1953, it’s a dystopian near-future USA in which books are banned, and the job of firemen such as the protagonist Guy Montag is to find any books that are found and to burn them. The population is kept happy with a constant onslaught of  stimulation so loud, colourful and immersive that it leaves them too exhausted to think. Most people (here represented by Montag’s wife Millie) have music piped into their ears constantly by ‘thimbles’ and spend their time watching TV shows, more real to the viewers than real life, in which people talk a lot but never actually say anything. Young people get their thrills by joyriding, killing passers-by and one another for sport. Books are banned not necessarily because they are physical objects but for the ideas they contain. Because they are likely to contain actual opinions, they stir up discord and discontent that might be offensive to somebody – so they must be removed. All modern life is there — reality TV, social media, earbuds, instant gratification,  cancel culture, endemic casual violence. The blurb calls it ‘terrifyingly prophetic’. Anyway, when Montag is lured by the magic of books, his life unravels, and, hey, I’m telling you the plot. Don’t read this blog! Read the actual book! And did I say the writing is absolutely beautiful? Lyrical, almost musical, but perfectly balanced with the genre pacing and plot. No wonder it’s one of the classics of science fiction.

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High Noon, And I’d Sell My Soul For Water

July, 1998, and I am in the field near Lake Turkana in Kenya. The rains have been kind — but not so kind that the various rivers that drain into the lake aren’t dry, sandy highways. The lake water itself is not drinkable. Not that you’d get bilharzia — it’s too alkaline — but because, well, it’s too alkaline. And all sorts of things have peed in it. The rare surface puddles are likewise best avoided. But there is water. Drinkable, and lots of it. You just have to dig for it.

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Digging for Water, Kenya, 1998

Gabriel Ekalele and I, on water-digging detail, went to the middle of the dry river Topernawi and got to work. A meter or so down the water runs swift and clear — perfectly drinkable, after having been filtered by the sand above. We take turns to climb down into the hole, fill a bucket, and, passing it upwards, the colleague at ground level up-ends the bucket into a large plastic water barrel.

Later, other members of the team will hoist this into a Land Rover and bring it back to camp. The water is decanted into canvas water bags and slung on tree branches. Slow evaporation of the water as it leaks slowly through the water skin keeps it cool. We never lack for fresh water, then, even here.

But it’s a lot of work.

July, 2022, chez Gee. I’m up early with the pets. In the kitchen, I turn on the tap to fill a kettle to make some tea. I notice that the usual rush of cold water has slowed to a trickle. I check various pipes, taps, valves and so on to establish that all is well at home.

It was. Phew.

That’s when I phoned Anglian Water, just in case there was a fault somewhere. The friendly fellow on the line checked my details and said ‘Oh my goodness. Two leaks near you. One… well … is bad. The other is RUN TO THE HILLS!’ I reminded him that Norfolk is generally very flat, though it so happens I live in one of the few lumpy bits.

Later, when walking the dogs, I found the leaks, in the main road to which my street is a quiet appendage. Water was gushing from cracks in the gutter at the side of the road, mere yards from the front door of a friend, who’d done her civic duty by phoning the local bus company to advise them to change their route. Everyone was out, chatting, and a nice young man from Anglian Water was out checking the damage. Funny how a minor local mishap brings out the blitz spirit in everyone. My, we almost had a street party there and then. Everyone had buckets and watering cans to collect the bounty, and the dogs had a paddle. But it was such a shame to see all that pure clean fresh water running down the street and gurgling into the storm drains.

Later on, we found very quickly how much we depend on that supply of water: how much we take it for granted. Suddenly we couldn’t wash, or shower, or do the dishes, or flush the loo. I had to fill watering cans from one of my many ponds for that last purpose. For drinking I had to go out and buy bottled water, though what with the recent spell of hot weather, there wasn’t much to be had (‘there’s always gin’, I thought). By the time we’d found some (bottled water, not gin), Anglian Water had plugged the leak, left a lovely courtesy call to tell me so, and all was well again.

This small episode made me think of how lucky we are to have a ready supply of fresh, clean water, whenever we want it, and how easily we are inconvenienced by its sudden deficiency. Billions of people in other countries are not so fortunate. Climate change is making it even harder to get clean water on tap. So by way of expiation I made a small donation to WaterAid.

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UntitledYou have been very patient. Thank you – yes, both of you. And you there, at the back, yes you, no, sorry, I didn’t see you come in.

It’s been more than a week now since I finished transitioning from one variety of bongo juice to another. (For earlier instalments, see here and here). Long enough for me to submit what I hope will be this final report.

I am now on 20mg vortioxetine per day, which is the final dose (for now). The transition from venlafaxine to vortioxetine took eight weeks, and, to be honest, really should have taken longer. But it’s done now and I cannot say I’ll be posting anything positive about the experience on trip advisor.

Now, though, I feel I can look up and view the world with some sort of equanimity. My dream life has calmed down a lot. My mood feels much stabler. However, I seem to have lost a certain something. I haven’t done anything remotely musical for a couple of weeks now. This could be because my musical partner in crime has been on vacation, and busy earning a living as a professional musician — but that hasn’t stopped me coming up with ideas before.

So now I am ready to face the world. A little more grimly. And definitely a lot older than the passage of eight weeks would imply. Maybe it’s time dilation.

That’s something nobody tells you about mental illness – it ages you. As one of our gallant band has documented in these annals, there is a lot of it about.  That bloke next to you on the bus may look tough and ruthless, but inside he’s rough and toothless. And still we soldier on, veterans of the psychic wars.

Not because we can, but because we must.

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Galaxies in a Grain of Sand

UntitledTake a grain of sand and hold it up at the sky at arm’s length. That grain of sand covers a patch of sky equivalent to that captured by the spectacular new image from the NASA James Webb Space Telescope (JWST), the six-metre-diameter eye in the sky now settling in to its spot somewhere in deep space. The grain-of-sand image, attributed to NASA Administrator Bill Nelson, is the item which, for me, stood out amid the splurge of coverage.  For a start, it cannot help but evoke the poem Auguries of Innocence, by William Blake, which starts:

To see a World in a Grain of Sand
And a Heaven in a Wild Flower
Hold Infinity in the palm of your hand
And Eternity in an hour

… which is both apposite and ironic. Apposite, because the image is calculated to inspire a childlike wonder and awe at the Universe in which we live; ironic, given the arguably anti-scientific message of the poem. It has been through the efforts of thousands of scientists and engineers over decades that the wonder and awe has been made possible. I have liberated borrowed the image here, to show what a grain-of-sand-at-arm’s-length covers.
main_image_deep_field_smacs0723-5mbThe bright pointy thing is a foreground star. Everything else is a distant galaxy, each one on its own an island universe comprising billions of stars. Some of the galaxies are in a cluster called SMACS 0723 which, because it is so far away, and light travels at a fast but finite speed, is as it was 4.6 billion years ago — about the same time that our Solar System formed. But wait, there’s more. The reddish arcs clustered round the centre are galaxies that are even more distant, their images magnified and distorted by the gravitational field of SMAC 0723 in front of it, a phenomenon called gravitational lensing. These galaxies may be as old as 13 billion years – almost as old as the Universe itself.

Now, you might think that this particular grain of sand covers something special – but it does not. It is a tiny patch in a southern constellation called Volans. Even to its friends, this is an especially boring patch of the night sky. None of its stars is brighter than third magnitude, and the deep-sky objects in its borders are too faint for all but the most ardent telescopists to observe. The implication is clear — you could choose any tiny patch of night sky — any at all — and find within each a richness of galaxies, to any depth you please, each one home to billions of stars, and, presumably, billions of planets, and — who knows? — billions of entities holding up grains of sand in manipulatory tentacles and gasping at the scale of the Universe and their insignificance within it. But, hey, billions trillions schmillions. Powers of ten are of such magnitude that they tend to stupefy rather than edify. It’s that grain-of-sand image that sparks that visceral sense of wonder.

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What I Read In June

Screenshot 2022-06-15 at 00.29.23James Joyce: Ulysses Many years ago when the world was young Mrs Gee asked me what I’d like for my birthday. Uncharacteristically (I usually like a book, and maybe a box of Liquorice Allsorts) I asked for a night out at the theatre. A production of Samuel Beckett‘s play Waiting for Godot was  coming to the Theatre Royal in Norwich, starring Patrick Stewart and Ian McKellen, touring before it got to the West End. Not only would we get one up on our sophisticated London friends, who imagine that they and they only are so far up the zenith of their own apotheoses that the sun don’t shine and that Norfolk is the proverbial arse end of nowhere, but we’d see Gandalf and Jean-Luc Picard slug it out on stage before they did. Waiting for Godot is a famously ‘difficult’ play — but, you know what? — this was one of the best and most entertaining nights out we’d ever had. This could be a sad reflection on our social lives, but I rather think it had more to do with the quality of the production. Most productions over-think the play, pandering to its supposed modernist obscurity. This production, though, adhered closely to Beckett’s very precise stage directions. And also, according to the producer, that if one is going to have a play which (apart from one short scene) is a two-hander featuring two old geezers who have known each other all their lives, there is no better way to cast it than with, well, two old geezers who’ve known each other all their lives. The unselfconscious result was pure entertainment. The same goes for Ulysses, which, like Waiting For Godot, is a work viewed as so notoriously difficult that it tends to be more admired than read. So, taking advantage of my currently altered state of consciousness, I dived in. The premise of Ulysses is simple. It follows a small group of characters through their lives in Dublin, Ireland, during the course of a single day, specifically, 16 June 1904. On the way it challenges, reflects, refracts, subverts, transmogrifies, distorts, compresses, explodes, eviscerates, reassembles, thesaurizes and recycles everything we think we know and understand about how human thought gets processed into language, or words on a page. Like many specimens of Anglo-Irish literature through the ages (by that I mean literature in English by writers who self-identify as Irish), all the way from Jonathan Swift and, as it happens, Thomas Beckett, to Spike Milligan and Roddy Doyle, Ulysses is marked by a strong sense of the absurd. Now, this doesn’t mean that there don’t exist writers from places other than Ireland who are absurdist, nor that there might be writers from Ireland who write in a more conventional style. But — and this isn’t just because the action takes place in Dublin — one does tend to find reading this easier if one’s internal voice takes on an Irish accent, and rather than trying to think too much about what’s going on, simply go with the flow. And it is, in general, a modernist work, which seems odd for a book that was published almost exactly 100 years ago, but if you’ve read the poems of T. S. Eliot, such as The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock, you’ll know what to expect. The erudition (especially long quotations in Italian); the rich allusion; sometimes disconcerting contrasts between the internal worlds of the characters and their everyday circumstances; and above all the long, seemingly meaningless and certainly incomprehensible diversions. In the room the women come and go, talking of Michelangelo. What the Actual? Which room? Which women? And what’s with this Michelangelo business? And I thought this bus went to the station? Don’t sweat it, just enjoy the sounds of the words as they roll past: Ulysses is not so much a novel as a prose poem. What Joyce tries to do in Ulysses, apart from simply do things for — oh, heck, I’ll say it — the craic, is chart the interior monologues of characters as they happen. That is, quite literally, a stream of consciousness. So when the main protagonist, one Leopold Bloom, decides to go to a friend’s funeral, we don’t see him — as an omniscient narrator would, directing Bloom as a puppet — putting on his black suit and hat and going to the funeral, making small talk with his fellow mourners as they share the cab ride to the cemetery. Yes, we get that, but at the same time we witness every thought that passes across Bloom’s mind, whether everyday anxieties (he has a business appointment, and he needs to find time to do some shopping) or bubbling up from his subconscious, such as his sexual fantasies, and the state of his bowels, and all in the order in which they would happen — uncurated, unedited, unexpurgated and in real time — with no sense of propriety or logical order. This is no more than honest reportage of how people think, but our mind’s editor is as self-deluding as it is fierce, so what reaches the outside world is usually the cleaned up version — even more so for characters in fiction.  But if this is really how people think, it’s a wonder we can make any sense of our lives at all. As far as I know, no writer has worked harder to craft a work in such detail (Ulysses has a particularly knotty textual history and arguments persist to this day about the most authentic version) and yet at the same time remove himself from the process of his own creation. It is a remarkable book. Perhaps the most remarkable I have ever read. Will I read it again? Not on your Molly Bloom. But did I enjoy it? O yes, very yes I did yes yes YES!!

Screenshot 2022-06-16 at 20.43.08Deborah Moggach: The Black Dress Every so often Mrs Gee looks at the pile of reading matter by my bedside, clucks ‘Oh, Your Poor Brain’, and passes me something possibly more restorative. This one was a rebound read after Ulysses. Deborah Moggach is one of Britain’s better writers in the Middle-Class Aga-Saga genre, in which she concentrates on relationships, particularly among older people, as well as being an accomplished adapter of the works of others for the screen. The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel is her own adaptation of one of her own novels. The Black Dress is her Lockdown Novel, and starts off very conventionally. Pru, pushing seventy but still very fit and with it, appears to Have It All. There’s the comfy life in a five-bedroom house in Muswell Hill and a doting husband Greg who is a retired academic and expert cook (O! Ottolenghi!) There are the troops of friends in the Lazy, Liberal Guardian-reading mode,  all very much in favour of the working classes as long as they don’t let them shop at Waitrose, and for whom places outside London only exist as locations for a dacha. And last and very much not least a zany Best Friend with whom to have wild adventures provided there is the well-feathered nest to which she can return. Except it all unravels when Greg unexpectedly leaves to ‘find himself’, after which Pru’s life takes a series of alarming handbrake turns and scree slides. I shan’t say more for fear of spoiling it, except that ‘finding oneself ‘ is the theme of this occasionally comic and sometimes very dark romp. Nobody in the book — except perhaps for Pru’s curtain-twitching neighbour Pam (very much a Daily Mail reader) — is what they seem, and it turns out that Pru herself is an unreliable narrator. Although I promised no spoilers, there are a couple of places where shock revelations land like munitions dropped from orbit, rather as they do in Gillian Flynn’s Gone Girl. I dislike such blatant authorial manipulation and find it dishonest. Another thing is that everyone is at it like rabbits (ethically sourced and organically farmed, naturally). Perhaps it’s something to do with living in Muswell Hill. Or reading the Guardian.

Screenshot 2022-06-23 at 17.26.10Alastair Reynolds: Inhibitor Phase Oh the joy when during a very recent excursion, suitably masked and in a Class 4 Hazmat suit, I ventured forth, or, arguably, fifth, and found myself in Waterstones in Norwich where I encountered an Alastair Reynolds novel the existence of which had yet to penetrate the Gee armamentarium. Reynolds is a leading exponent of the moderately recent upsurge of space opera, in which that scruffy pulp genre (basically, westerns in space) got an injection of brains and literary sensibility, and all in a very British mode. Perhaps the leading light was the late and very much lamented Iain M. Banks, with his stylish, sassy and riotously colourful novels set in the Galaxy-spanning civilisation called the Culture: though one could legitimately mention in the same breath the cerebral Justina Robson, the techno-marxist Ken MacLeod, the grisly Neil Asher , the sesquipedalian Peter F Hamilton and the exuberant Charles Stross. To name but six five. Reynolds, in my opinion, is right up there at the top of the tree, though his Revelation Space fictional universe is very much darker and gothic than Banks’ Culture, for all that it has more realistic constraints. Faster-than-Light travel doesn’t happen in Reynolds’ Universe, and all the action takes place in that small region of the Galaxy a few light years away from Earth. Reynolds is very fond, for example, of Epsilon Eridani, one of the Sun’s closest neighbours in space, where he has set the fictional planet Yellowstone, scene of much of the action in the Revelation Space stories. This limitation enhances rather than limits the action, and we see all the likely consequences of human societies diverging in ethos and biology as a result of time dilation and exposure to space. Not that Reynolds lacks humour – there are quite a few pop-culture references that won’t escape People of a Certain Age (the Glitter Band, the Spiders from Mars) – although the dialogue tends to subside into long series of sarcastic asides. At some point in the Revelation Space sequence, humans have unwittingly woken a contagion of artificially intelligent entities, the Inhibitors or ‘Wolves’, whose purpose is to extinguish any sign of intelligent life they come across, though I should say at this point that Offspring#1 tells me that there is no intelligent life on Earth as he is only here until the Lizard People return and claim him for their own. But I digress. Inhibitor Phase opens when humanity has been all but defeated by the Inhibitors. Ageing spaceman Miguel de Ruyter has managed to keep the light on for a small remnant living a rather straitened existence inside a hollowed-out asteroid in an out-of-the-way location. When a spaceship ventures too close to home, De Ruyter takes it upon himself to intercept and destroy the craft before it draws the attention of the ever-vigilant Inhibitors. The crew of the craft, however, has other plans. De Ruyter is abducted and forced to take part in a seemingly hopeless quest to find a way to stop the seemingly relentless course of the Inhibitors. For De Ruyter is not the man he appears to be, and the quest peels off layers and layers of past lives and past crimes for which he has yet to atone. Although Inhibitor Phase does draw extensively on earlier stories in the Revelation Space canon, it works perfectly well as a stand-alone novel, if one allows oneself to regard the frequent references to earlier episodes as background that enriches the current story. And, yes, it’s definitely a story, full of all the action, adventure, alien intelligence, futuristic technology and apocalyptically-powerful-super-weapons-created-by-long-vanished-civilisations that one has come to expect in the very shiniest space operas.

Screenshot 2022-06-24 at 07.16.10Bill McGuire: Hothouse Earth, an Inhabitant’s Guide This is a short, sharp, shock of a book. It is the most concise and authoritative summary of the current state of the world’s climate of which I am aware. As to short, it’ll fit in a pocket, and I read it in one sitting. It’s also up-to-date, having been written in what seems like a furious frenzy just after COP-26, the latest United Nations convention on climate change. As for its sharpness, it doesn’t waste time laying out the threats faced by all of us imposed by climate change created by human actions. And the shock? These threats are imminent, and they are dire: the book will be a salutary reminder and rallying call for even most informed climate-change watcher. Within the next few decades, there will be times when large parts of the Earth will be uninhabitable to humans and the crops on which humans depend. The heat is destabilising weather, leading to unseasonable heatwaves in the Arctic and blizzards in Texas.  It’ll be hot, but it’ll also be dry. Drought also afflicts much of the world, not least those parts that are politically unstable and from which millions of migrants are on the move. Rivers and reservoirs are drying, leaving hydroelectric power dams high and dry. Wildfires are everywhere. Amid the drought, it’ll be wet. Not English fine-drizzle wet, but suddenly, Biblically wet, inundations that’ll cause overwhelming floods. The short and sharp end of the shock is that all these things are happening now, and are getting worse as you watch. The Earth is no stranger to climate change (McGuire sets this out too) but the difference between then and now is that anthropogenic climate change has been so sudden, and although people have been aware of it — and have been doing things to mitigate it — much more needs to be done. The book deserves to be read by everybody, and not just climate activists. It’s a shame, then, that he preaches solely to the choir and seems to show contempt for the very people this book needs to reach.

Raising the alarm, in our current circumstances, is a good thing. It fits with  … the idea that we need to really know our enemy — in this case global heating – and how well it is armed, if we want to defeat it. My view is that, currently, most members of the public, and indeed most world leaders, simply do not. [p. 160]

He continues, evoking shades of Marie Antoinette:

The fact that the word ‘cake’ was mentioned ten times more than ‘climate change’ on UK television in 2020 says it all about how true appreciation of the nature and scale of the climate emergency has yet to break through. [pp160-161].

Advocating direct action, public transport, walking and cycling is all very well for a middle class Guardian reader, but is less likely to impress the small-town mother of three who has to do a weekly shop, and three different school runs, before her 13-hour shift as a nurse, or her tradesman partner, for whom the price of an electric vehicle is way out of reach; and for whom privileged people who have the leisure to disrupt fuel supply and transport are at best irrelevant and at worst a threat to their livelihoods and those on whose presence they depend. Yet these are the people — ordinary, regular people, not the metropolitan elite — who need to be convinced. To call for boycotts of and disinvestment in fossil fuel companies sounds nice but is naive, and doesn’t take into account the policies of those companies which, if they are wise, will plough their profits into renewable energy schemes. Rather than boycotts, one could argue that the sensible strategy would be to invest more, not less, and so have a restraining voice at shareholder meetings. And to rail against free-market capitalism is to castigate the very system that has enabled this author to acquire the expertise necessary to write this book and the freedom to to express his views.  It is flawed, to be sure, but takes no account of the alternatives. The planned, collectivist economies of Russia and China caused famine and hardship on an industrial scale, and they did it all on their own — climate change was neither here nor there. DISCLAIMER: This review is based on uncorrected proofs sent to me by the author.

UntitledJohn Wyndham: The Midwich Cuckoos A recent televisual adaptation of this mouldy old slice of mid-1950s cheese by the same author of The Day of the Triffids and other bagatelles was enough for me to drag it off the shelves for a re-read. As I was doing so, the US Supreme Court severely curtailed access to abortion for many women in the United States, days after increasing access to firearms despite hesitant moves in Congress to propose gun-control measures — and this in a country where children going to school run the risk of being shot to death. All of which added overtones to what is essentially a tale of alien invasion by stealth. Midwich is the quintessential English village. Somewhere vaguely in the leafy Home Counties and yet some way off the beaten track, it’s the kind of sleepy place where nothing ever happens. (Having said that, there’s a village near me called Little Snoring, but that has its own airfield — Midwich doesn’t even have that). Connected by thin arteries of country lanes to three other villages, it’s very much cut off. Even by the standards of the 1950s it is a deliberate caricature. It has the pub, the church, the Manor House, the village green, the class system in which a few tweedy toffs expect deference from an assorted cast of rude mechanicals — and get it. Conventional religion in the form of the milk-and-water vicar is a thin veneer over country superstition and tradition. Against this background, the events that befall Midwich seem all the more startling. After a September day in which all the people in Midwich fall asleep,  it is found that all the women of childbearing age in the village, irrespective of whether they are married, are pregnant. This is the cause of much shock, shame and soul-searching. Remember that this was an unenlightened age, barely touched by TV, let alone the internet. Most people lived their entire lives a few miles from where they were born. The church was still an important part of the life of any country village. Having children out of wedlock was seen as a sin. Even in the UK, abortion was still not yet legal. When the children of Midwich are born, they all look identical, and different from their parents. The children are slender and blond (memories of Hitler’s Aryan Master Race were still raw). The women of the village feel that they have been used, their maternal instincts exploited, cruelly subverted — even violated — by a power no-one understands. Their menfolk keep their simmering rage stopped up beneath a thin layer of English  respectability. (An aside – it’s no wonder that Brian Aldiss and David Wingrove, in Trillion Year Spree, their critical history of SF, coined the term ‘cosy catastrophe’ for Wyndham’s fiction, as well as pointing out a preoccupation in English SF with ‘submerged nations’). In this way, The Midwich Cuckoos has a distinct sense of time and place, very much exploited in the 1960 movie version Village of the Damned, all B-feature horror and accents you could use to etch glass — but lacking in the 21st-Century TV version, which is conventionally multicultural;  the children ethnically diverse; the class divides muted; in which women have (one hopes) some governance over their own bodies;  and birth outside marriage is no longer anything to be wondered at. For these reasons, the modern version lacks the claustrophobia of the original, so much so that one wonders why they bothered to make it at all. Except… that the children grow up to dominate every aspect of life in the village, and possibly beyond. An existential threat, they have to be eliminated (something that peaceable Middle England dreads to contemplate), and this can only happen if an adult who has gained their trust goes down with the ship. In 1957, the adult was the patrician Gordon Zellaby, successful author and popular philosopher, and resident in the manor house, whose long discussions are plainly far too allusive for most people to understand (one can imagine him on the Brains Trust). In 2022, Zellaby has become a child psychologist, played by Keeley Hawes, equally imprisoned by her own gobbledegook. But I digress. The sanctity of motherhood; the invasion without consent of that most intimate of spaces — the womb — by outside forces; the enslavement of the progenitors by the products and their eventual violent destruction; all made me think that modern Middle America, not Middle England, might be a more apposite background for a remake. The monoculture, the superstition and the religion are all in place, with the sense of Right and Wrong and the entitlement of a few to determine the reproductive and social rights of the many. In such a remake, one might imagine the Supreme Court doing something unlikely and almost science-fictional — oh, I don’t know, let’s say banning abortion (yes, I know, I know, ridiculous in this day and age, but this is fiction, so hear me out), but at the same time making it easier for adults to carry weapons so that the resulting Offspring might more easily be used as target practice. Cue much heart-rending discussion about the gunning down of innocent children. But hey, says the Judge, if the children were unwanted anyway, why should anyone complain? Praise the Lord and pass the ammunition.

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Water feature

Screenshot 2022-06-16 at 07.41.29 Pictured on the patio at the Maison Des Girrafes last night (behind the cats) are these reclaimed galvanised water tanks now repurposed as ponds. I got the idea to use large containers as ponds after watching Gardeners World and it’s become my latest obsession. We already have a small pond (scene of much hot frog-on-frog action each year) and I have other containers such as reconfigured plastic water barrels here and there. But there is something about these tanks I find very soothing, and I like the contrast between the big, square, riveted and industrial tanks and the shape and colour of the vegetation. It also adds variety to the garden’s diversity, as the frogs that populate our small ground-level pond won’t be able to get into these, so maybe I shall have other things such as dragonflies. If you build it, they will come – I saw two bright blue damselflies in the garden yesterday, haven’t seen these for years.

Many years ago when the world was young and I was starting an allotment and needed a water tank on-site people could hardly give these tanks away. They used to store water in peoples’ lofts but were gradually replaced by lighter (and less leaky) plastic ones. Back then I got mine for free. All I had to do was get up into the donor’s loft and remove it (I had to bring a friend). But we’ve passed a lot of water since then and these tanks are now heritage items. The tank on the left came from Etsy and cost around £120 with delivery. The tank on the right came from a brilliant place called Norfolk Reclaim and cost £80. If you search around online you’ll see that these are fairly good value. But neither was watertight, so I had to spend more on sealants, none of which really worked, so in the end bought heavy-duty plastic pod liner which cost around £45 all together. Then there are the plants. The sedge in the tank on the left, and the irises on the right, I got for free, but I do like buying water lilies and these can be pricey. I’d like to add another one — a tank, that is — to the left of these two and slightly lower down. But I think I’ll need to save up. To think, Lancelot ‘Capability’ Brown spent fortunes landscaping deer parks with faux-Greek temples and ha-ha’s and having people dig enormous lakes, back in the day. But he got someone else to pay for it. The ambitions of Henry ‘Incapacity’ Gee must perforce be more limited.

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Don’t Try This At Home

As you’ll both be aware I am in the middle of changing from one Brain Care Medication to another. Last week I was just starting a week of zero venlafaxine (trades under Vensir, Vencarm, Venlalix, Voldemort, Vadermort, Vulcan Bomber — have you seen one of those things? I was under a low-flying one in Cambridge once and the entire sky went dark — Vengeance Weapon of DOOOOM,  Efexor, Effuxxxor of Luxor, Venlablue, Wave Upon Wave of Demented Avengers, The Embalmer, the Death Star, &c. &c.) after a steady, three-week process of reducing the dose.

Well, today is the last day of nothing. As from tomorrow I shall be starting tiny weeny doses of a new drug, vortioxetine.  The stripe I’ll be on is called BrintelUntitledlix which sounds like the name of one of Asterix the Gaul‘s cousins, perhaps the Ygor-like assistant of Getafix the Druid who actually has to go out and score the Herb and the Shrooms off unmentionable shadowy woodland creatures in the wide lands of Armorica. The introductory dose  – 5mg daily – does hardly anything more than step across the threshold of my weary wrung-out interior landscape and suggests politely that it might put out the trash and do the washing up. Only when it’s really got its busy scampering little feet under the table will it start having a good clear out, hoovering behind the wallpaper and inside the lightbulbs and generally bossing me about to look sharpish and Bristol fashion and not go around wearing that rag on my head (see picture top right) if only because a small girl came up to me just yesterday while I was out shopping for atonal apples and amplified heat that she thought I looked like a pirate when what Mrs Gee says is I look like an ageing biker who’s forgotten where he’s parked his Harley but what do I care now I am over 60 I have decided not to care a flying ferruginous ferrule, nay, not even for a fragmented fissile femtosecond,  what anyone thinks of me any more notwithstanding inasmuch as which I shall be up to 20mg daily with the earnest sincere hope that I can pretty much stay that way forever. Yes, I have undergone this process before, several times, but it’s never been this bad, and I  really really reeely don’t want to go through this again.

If a week is a long time in Popocatépetl – stratovolcanoes have gravity fields that could, oh, I don’t know, dilate time — it has been hogspittingly fartjangling expletive eternity round here, I can tell you, and no, that’s not a joke about Norfolk. For example I wrote the earlier communique just a week ago but since then I have been through a most extraordinary and not entirely pleasant series of psychic evolutions the like of which I wouldn’t want to wish on anyone except perhaps — no, I don’t want to get sued — but taken together simultaneously and at the same time seem to have been at least as long as the Benzedrene Epoch.

The best parts are when I am asleep. For certain values of the word ‘best’. Venlafaxine has always given me powerful dreams. I have been on it for so long I can’t really remember what Pre-V dreams were like, but my V-dreams, many of which seem to be about commuting (a primitive, extortionately expensive and unnecessary series of contortions that involves breathing the exhaled effluvia of others) were always directed by Tim Burton. That is, they were bright, colourful, in-yer-face and occasionally violent, though sadly Helena Bonham-Carter didn’t appear in any of them. The Dover-Beach-Style Long Wave Goodbye to Effuxxxor of Luxor (though probably Not Nearly Long Enough) has ushered in a new flavour to my dreams. They are now directed by Wes Anderson, which means that the surrealism has become more extensive and subtle as the colour palette has become more muted. I am waiting for a dream in which Owen Wilson and Adrien Brody do a double-act about their failure to find the right London tube line that goes to Cromer.

But getting to sleep has been hard, and when I am awake I quite often feel absolutely dreadful — nobody warned me that withdrawal from the Big V would make me feel quite so  very actually ill, I mean, properly ill, as in having to drop what I am doing and go to bed, and sometimes when doing something innocuous like ironing the axolotl or milking the paramecia (helpful hint – you need much smaller tweezers than you’d think) I’d just be doubled up in floods of tears you’d think Noah was right on time and we’d all get washed away with the dodo and a flagon of miniature hedgehogs. So I am often asleep after lunch, or in the early evening — but around one or two a.m. I am wide awake and as busy as a hamster on amphetamines.

I hope things will start to settle down, and that the next Director of Dreams will be Taika Waititi. I could do with some light and undemanding humour. The Hunt for the Wilder People is my favourite movie. Well, actually, Monty Python and the Holy Grail is really my favourite movie, but I don’t think my brain could stand Terry Gilliam. Not that I don’t like and admire films by Terry Gilliam.  I can and do. Just not directing what goes on inside my head. Oh, and Guillermo Del Toro.

One thing has happened that has made me very cross. When I post updates on my internal state on social media, most people are very sympathetic, and, thank you, I appreciate these virtual hugs, they really do help. But then there are the people with no medical qualifications or knowledge whatsoever asking damn fool questions about whether I really need to be administering these ‘poisons’ to myself. And other people, full of helpful ‘advice’ about various psychoactive drugs and shouldn’t I be looking into these? I am pleased to say that friends who are qualified have weighed in mightily about the sheer irresponsibility of such vaporings.

Therefore I should say, for the record, that I am not doing any of this for, like, fun. I wouldn’t have come off  Wave Upon Wave of Demented Avengers at all if I hadn’t started to become habituated to it, and increasing the dose had no beneficial effects.

More importantly I am at all times under the care of the professionals. My drug advice comes from my Private Brain Care Specialist, and the drugs are administered by my General Practitioner, who did advise me that even the eight-week program she suggested might be extended if I found things to be a bit rocky. If I might get a bit Anglo-Saxon, Hwaet! Éalá Éarendel Engla Beorhtast! People who aren’t qualified, still less know my extensive experience as a Veteran in the Psychic Wars, can Jolly Well Fuck Off. To be serious, those who make pretzels with the insides of their brains as a kind of home-made recreational do-it-yourself science experiment, or take their medical advice from Hieronymous down the pub, are at best fools — at worst, downright dangerous.

Q: How many Veterans of the Psychic Wars does it take to change a light bulb?

A: If you don’t know, man, you weren’t there.

If there is one piece of advice I explore deplore implore you to take home with you, especially if you are already at home, it is this

DON’T TRY THIS AT HOME.

Because doing it inside your own head is much, much worse.

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Brain Strain

I am a career depressive.

I’ve been on all the drugs.

Back in the day I was on mianserin which they probably only use nowadays to tranquilize rhinos, and even then, only from a long way off.

After I came off that I was clean for years — snorting a bit of St John’s wort, purely recreationally you understand — although that does tend to turn one into a vampire.

But then I slowly slid off the wagon into the arms of  citalopram. I splarfed this for many years until it wore out, as these things tend to do. After that came a rocky patch in which I discovered that diazepam turned me into a zombie; mirtazapine a monster; and sertraline did nothing for me whatsoever. It was then that my Private Brain-Care Specialist prescribed venlafaxine, which for at least a decade has kept me from curling up into a fetal position and crying.

But now that, too, has begun to wear off. My Private Brain-Care Specialist (a new one, the previous one having retired) has prescribed vortioxetine. The same Private Brain Care Specialist also sent me some questionnaires which show without fear of contradiction that I am definitely up to my spleen on the Autism Spectrum notwithstanding inasmuch as which definite signs of ADHD, a revelation to which Offspring No. 1’s weltschmerzy response was ‘This Surprises Nobody’. It could explain why I feel as unable to relax as a frog in a frying pan; have to be completely unplugged from life in order to avoid going completely Harpic; and my idea of a perfect heavenhellHouston is probably two weeks in a sensory deprivation chamber. Though Leicestershire is nice.

But I digress. Back to the drugs. I have yet to take any vortioxetine (do at least try to keep up at the back), because — and if you’ve been there, you’ll know this — you can’t simply stop taking one kind of happy juice one day and pop a different one the next day week aeon femtosecond gosh I do wonder what day of the week it is and excuse me Madam but does this bus go to the Fart Barn. One has to slowly wean oneself off the old stuff, and, only when it’s out of one’s system, gradually up the dose of the new.

This process might take several weeks. As of now I have started a week in which I am taking … wait for it ….

precisely nothing.

No safety net.

AAAAND NOW I shall try to dive off the tightrope and into the shark-infested bowl of custard below while missing all the sharks. And the custard. Next week, whenever that is, when hell freezes over or they build Jerusalem in England’s Green and Pleasant Etcetera so that must be the cause of that building site just off the A148 near Holt, who knew,  I start to take doses of vortioxetine so tiny they wouldn’t trouble a goldfish, and then up the dose in weekly excrements increments until I shall be capable of holding a conversation without zoning out and even then only with a golden retriever, but hey, she’s a good listener.

Screenshot 2022-06-06 at 12.04.37Happily, this slow process hasn’t reduced me to curling up into a fetal position and crying. It has, however, had its effects. Most of the time I feel slightly stoned, rather like Dylan from a Televisual Emission of YesterYore called the Magic Roundabout. Those of a Certain Age will remember Dylan as a hippy rabbit (reputedly named after Bob Dylan) who wandered around in a perpetual funk saying things such as ‘Like. Wow. Man’.

When not feeling stoned I do have the sense of Matches Not Striking On Box. Unpunched punchdrunk. Cry for no reason. Snappy. Irritable. Really, it’s awful. I shouldn’t recommend it. And I am always tired. But that could just be my age.

And this is after a physician-managed, slow process. The mental consequences of coming off venlafaxine all of a sudden — cold turkey — are scarcely imaginagle. Imaginable. No, I was right the first time, so I was.

There is a plus side, though. I am taking advantage of my somewhat trippy state to read a book I’d probably have no patience with otherwise. And it’s doing wonders for my musical creativity. I’m now deep into the Difficult Second Album of my current musical project, G&T (more about that here). I can now understand why musicians and drugs go together like, well, musicians and rugs. I meant drugs. Not rugs. Especially as they get older because, you know, when you are over 60, which I am, you get free drugs. The rugs though are extra. Butterflies. Possibly. And wheels.

MORAL: Don’t do drugs, kids. If you find you have to, don’t come off them. Ever. The withdrawal symptoms are too horrible to contemplate.

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What I Read In May

Screenshot 2022-05-01 at 20.23.39Emma Healey: Elizabeth Is Missing I actually read this (and Little Egypt, below) in April, but squeezed it in at the very end during a weekend in which I had to see a man about a dog (no, really) so they’ve been extruded into May. I don’t know why I am telling you this. After all, why would you care? But I Digress. There are many stories with a first-person protagonist in which it is quite clear that the narrator isn’t really aware of what is really going on. (My favourite is The Remains of the Day by Kazuo Ishiguro). Elizabeth Is Missing takes this a step further. Not only does the protagonist not really know what is going on, but her confusion gets worse, as she is suffering from dementia which starts off moderate and gets worse and worse towards the book’s end. Maud (that’s the protagonist) is a widow in a small seaside town where she has lived all her life. She is obsessed by the apparent disappearance of her friend Elizabeth – but her distress really covers a deeper, older mystery, that of the disappearance of her elder sister Sukey when Maud was a girl, just after the end of the Second World War. Unlike the vague, dreamlike present day, Maud recalls the events of the late nineteen-forties with crystal clarity, even though she’s not always aware what’s going on then, either, as she’s a child from whom the grown-ups are variously trying to hide their own grown-up matters.

Screenshot 2022-05-01 at 20.32.25Lesley Glaister: Little Egypt Many years ago when the world was young I enjoyed bidding in a charity silent auction in aid of our local high school. Among the lots were a keg of beer (which attracted many bids); and a bundle of books from Salt Publishing, Cromer’s very own literary publishing house (which attracted just one bid – mine). I read one of the books, The Lighthouse by Alison Moore, but it was so depressing that the thought of any mo(o)re in that vein put me off for years. Little Egypt, though, was a tonic. I was attracted because it is based around one of my favourite settings — a large country pile in an advanced state of decay, with secrets piled on secrets. Indeed, the house is the title character. Little Egypt is a grand house in the north of England. Like many grand houses, the First World War pretty much did for it, and the spendthrift owners progressively sold off more of the land until it is a  small island completely cut off from the rest of the world by a railway line, a dual carriageway and a superstore. Although dilapidated, it is still inhabited by nonagenarian twins Isis and Osiris, whose childhoods had been scarred by their abandonment in the house, during the 1920s, by their Egyptologist parents who were forever in Egypt squandering their wealth on a search for the fabled Tomb of Herihor. As the story opens, Osiris has long ago descended from eccentricity into madness, but Isis is still as sharp as a tack. For years she has been courted by a developer who wants to buy Little Egypt so it can be levelled to make way for yet another superstore. Isis is sorely tempted … until she remembers the awful secrets that the house conceals. In many ways the book is like Elizabeth is Missing in that it alternates between the girlhood and old age of the central character. The only flaw for me was a section in the middle in which the young twins actually travel to Egypt to see their awful parents. This seemed to go on longer than necessary. Mainly, I think, because those scenes didn’t feature the slowly decaying mansion, against which the tombs and temples of ancient Egypt seemed fresh and new.

Screenshot 2022-05-06 at 19.48.00Robert Harris: Conclave Were you to pick up and read the kind of thriller customarily sold at airports, and then say to yourself ‘that’s easy, any fool can write a book like that’ — think again. It isn’t. The careful charting of plot; the creation of characters that are believable enough for you to care about them (but no more); the display of vast amounts of research in such a way as it enhances the story rather than detracts from it; all require consummate craft and skill as a writer. Few have more craft or skill than Robert Harris. Probably best known for Fatherland (an alternative history set in the 1960s after Hitler won the war), I first discovered Harris with Pompeii, an adventure set just before the eruption of Vesuvius in 79CE. Although Harris tends to write a lot about the Romans and the Second World War, he has branched out into black humour (Ghost, in which a writer is tasked with ghosting the memoirs of a Prime Minister who looks a lot like Tony Blair); SF (The Fear Index, in which a computer on the stock market goes rogue) , and much else (my favourite is An Officer and a Spy, about the Dreyfus Affair). Clearly, Harris likes to set himself a challenge. To make a thriller out of the election of a new Pope would seem a tall order, given that almost all the characters are elderly men in frocks. Despite an almost total lack of sex or violence, and no car chases (but oh! the costumes!) Harris weaves a truly unputdownable tale about the election of a (fictional) Pope. The incumbent Pope has died after a long illness during which he has left several loose ends and made several seemingly unusual decisions. It falls to Cardinal Jacopo Lomeli, the Dean of the College of Cardinals, to organise the conclave of 118 of his fractious fellows in which a successor will be elected. Cue a great deal of intrigue, politicking, quotations from the Bible and some jaw-dropping plot twists. It might seem odd to write a novel about the Catholic Church these days that is in any way sympathetic. This one is — sympathetic, that is — because despite nods to the ongoing scandals involving sex abuse by the clergy, and the financial chicanery with which the Pontifical bank accounts have been associated, the protagonist is a fundamentally good man. Lomeli has spent a life in the Church, and despite his own repeated bouts of Imposter Syndrome he is clearly devout, well-liked, tactful and skilled in untangling the various problems that the task of running the conclave throws up. And if after reading this book you don’t know everything there is to know about running a Papal conclave, you’ve been reading a completely different book.

Screenshot 2022-05-29 at 10.04.02Charles Dickens: Martin Chuzzlewit Some wag said of Wagner’s music that it has wonderful moments and dreadful quarters-of-an-hour. One can say much the same of this lesser-known Dickens novel (serialised between 1843 and 1844). Although Dickens felt at the time that it was ‘immeasurably the best of my stories’, reception fell rather flat. Not that it is without its charms. To be sure, it’s no Pickwick Papers or Oliver Twist, but it would be an insensitive reader who didn’t find much to enjoy in this this humungous chungus of a doorstop (my edition runs to more than 900 pages), rather in the way that there are bound to be quite a few plums in a  plum pudding, if it is big enough. The baggy plot is subservient to the moralising character. It is a study in hypocrisy and selfishness from the personal and parochial of Mr Pecksniff to the corporate and criminal of the Anglo-Bengalee Disinterested Life Assurance and Loan Company. Confusingly, there are not one but two Martin Chuzzlewits – the elder, eccentric and miserly; and the younger, his conceited and snobbish grandson. But wait, there’s more. Chuzzlewits abound, including (but not limited to) Anthony (the Elder Martin’s brother); Mr Pecksniff himself (a distant Chuzzlewit cousin); and his daughters Charity and Mercy (flinty and flighty respectively) but especially the horrible Jonas. In fact, the book is fair stuffed with Chuzzlewits, and there are times when there is so much Chuzzlewittery one can hardly move: the book really should have been called ‘The Chuzzlewit Saga’. To this concatenation of Chuzzlewits may be added a cavalcade of characters, from the virtuous Tom Pinch to the jolly Mark Tapley (who stands to young Martin as Sam Weller does to Mr Pickwick), although it’s Dickens’ female characters that really stand out. Apart from the Chuzzlewit daughters, there’s the put-upon boarding-house proprietor Mrs Todgers; the American literary celebrity Mrs Hominy; the warm-hearted publican Mrs Lupin — and especially the dipsomaniac nurse Mrs Gamp, who drops in every so often to give us a soliloquy on her imaginary friend Mrs Harris, just when the story is about to flag. In fact, I’d say Mrs Gamp transcends the novel to stand as one of Dickens’ finest comic creations. Sadly, the other female principals — Tom Pinch’s sister Ruth and the elder Martin’s confidante Ruth Graham — have traded character for near-saccharine virtue. Halfway through the novel, the young Martin and Mark Tapley sail to America to seek their fortunes, an episode that ends in disaster. Dickens had not long returned from his first visit to America. He went full of hope for the young Republic, but came home thoroughly disenchanted. The American episode in Martin Chuzzlewit is an excoriating satire on the towering self-regard of a people devoted to money at all or any cost, and who have nothing whatsoever to recommend them. Indeed, every dreadful habit, from spitting chewed tobacco to the owning of slaves to the bearing of weapons, is regarded as an Institution; the people who spit and shoot and own slaves among the ‘finest Men in the Country’. Such intellectual pursuits as there are take the form of political theorising that goes so far beyond the capacity of their own authors as to be completely unintelligible. The new nation is so deep-dyed in hypocrisy that people there seem to take an unusual interest in the aristocracy of a country – Britain – they affect to despise. It is in the American episode that Dickens’ sarcasm bites hardest. Here, a character encountered on a steamboat:

His complexion, naturally muddy, was rendered muddier still by too strict an economy of soap and water; and the same observation will apply to the washable part of his attire, which he might have changed with comfort to himself and gratification to his friends … He was not singular, to be sure, in these respects, for every gentleman on board appeared to have had a difference with his laundress, and to have left off washing himself in early youth.

The character is not some vagrant or backwoodsman, but a member of Congress, and (of course) ‘one of the finest men in the country’.

Dickens’ observations of America were so cutting that he was obliged to insert a postscript apologising for it. However, many of his observations seem (the part about personal hygiene excepted) to be as apposite today as they were when Dickens made them almost 180 years ago.

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