Moses was old, a chill in his bones
This autumn, I celebrate. It is now twenty years since I moved to London. That is about half of my life. The halls of residence I moved into that first year are no more. The building has been knocked down and replaced. My PhD will soon be a teenager. Imperial’s newest cohort of students were not born when I got here.
The city seems so still
When you’re looking down from Highgate Hill
I have loved London far longer than I have lived here. I wrote a blog post about that, back in the summer of 2012.
Something else happened that summer: The London 2012 Olympics Games.
The Games are mentioned, in the post, in passing. The games themselves passed me by, too, at the time. I was in a rush. Racing to finish my PhD thesis and flee academia for a corporate job.
Come ye, come ye, to soulless corporate circus tops
I took a break from the thesis to watch the opening ceremony, with J, because the opening ceremony had been much hyped, and because we both like Danny Boyle.
So ring that victory bell

Bradley Wiggins with a big bell.
The London 2012 Olympic Opening Ceremony officially begins when Bradley Wiggins rings a big bell. I remember at the time thinking that this big bell was cool. I looked it up, read more and more about bells and decided that one day I would like to have a go at ringing some. A bucket list thought: I will do this someday. I would like to. Once I have finished my thesis. Perhaps.
Forgive me, someone, for I have sinned
A decade later: 2022. After several years spent running away from God and His call on my life, aided and abetted by COVID-19 closing all the churches, it was time to take All Of This seriously. But there was a problem. I have, my whole life, always felt safe in churches, but now having been out of them for a long time whilst my beliefs had been changing I felt terrified to return to the building.
I’ll meet you on the corner of
Upper Street and the City Road
Of course, at this point, an email arrived: New Bellringers needed! A national campaign had been launched: Ring for the King. This initiative aimed to recruit bellringers and train them ready to ring for the coronation of Charles taking place the following spring. The St Mary’s ringing room was having an open day. Beginners welcome.
So it was with the help of bellringing that I made it back to church.
the bells in the churches

Bellringers in the pub after a quarter peal
It takes about eight weeks of weekly lessons to learn how to handle a bell safely, and a lifetime to master the craft. Once a learner is safe to ring independently, and able to control the bell well enough to ring with others, they are rapidly recruited for practice nights and to ring for Sunday services. Later on once further skills have been mastered the ringer gets invited to join a band to enter a striking competition and to ring for weddings, the latter paid cash in hand. Prolonged ringing performances – quarter peals and peals – are to be attempted. Before all this, from the earliest, one is introduced to the regular bellringing pastime of going to the pub.
The Ring for the King motif turned out to be a misnomer. We were not being recruited for a one-time gig; we were being recruited to become the next generation of bellringers. By the time we reached May 2023 and the coronation, it was clear that we recent learners were in this for life.
I traveled 40,000 miles last year
A competent bellringer can go places. Towers all over the country welcome visiting ringers to join their practice nights. In this capacity I have rung this year in Canterbury and Kettering. Last July, I visited a tower in Hampshire: All Saints East Meon.
some skinny half-arsed English country singer

Frank Turner and the Sleeping Souls play the London 2012 opening ceremony. Frank Turner – Green and Pleasant Land – London 2012 Opening Ceremony” by Marc, CC BY-NC-ND 2.0
To begin the other half of this story, you have to go back a few minutes further in 2012, to the scene just before Bradley struck that bell.
A bloke with a guitar standing on a grassy knoll sang a few songs with his backing band. I thought he was a bit good. I looked the guy up and started listening to his music. I talked about him with my friends and my siblings and learned that I was late to the party. Everyone else had been into Frank Turner for years.
And the nights, a thousand nights I’ve played
I started going to Frank Turner gigs. The first one, I went to with friends and siblings but these days I just rock up. I never feel alone. Frank tours incessantly. This year he played his three thousandth show up the road at Alexandra Palace. An effect I have noticed of all Frank’s touring is that there are a lot of opportunities to catch a live show, so most of his fans have, several times. A Frank Turner gig feels like returning to a weird club where everyone half-knows each other. We’ve all been here before. We know the overpriced lager and the queue for the merch stand; we recognise the T-shirts from past album launches; we know the words, the call-and-response, the dance moves and the bits. The question to friends you’ve just met is not
is this your first time seeing Frank
because it so rarely is. Instead you can talk about which gigs you went to and which was your favourite. You always have such a great time at a Frankie T show.
There’s something about hometowns that you never can escape
In the spring of this year, Frank announced he was playing a benefit gig near where he grew up. The beneficiary was to be the roof of his mum’s church. Church plus Frankie T – how could I not go? I worked out that if I made a weekend of it, I could even go and visit the church the funds were being raised for.
I’ve never set foot inside a tent
The venue for the gig is next to a campsite. I already have the camping gear and the know-how, but only because I started going to Greenbelt, a loosely Christian music, arts and justice festival. Incidentally, Frank has played Greenbelt, but that was before my time.
The bellringers from London found out I was headed out to Hampshire. They pointed out that I simply must ring. Turns out there is a ring of ten bells at All Saints East Meon. On Friday, once I’d put up my tent and cooked myself dinner on my camping stove, I walked across the fields from the campsite to the church, to join the practice.
if ever I stray from the path I follow
I got lost on the way and was picked up by a passing car. When I told the driver I was headed to the church, to join the bellringers, he told me
the whole village listens for the sound of the bells. It’s how we know it’s the start of the weekend.
No pressure then, on this visiting ringer.
The Friday night practice at All Saints East Meon went great. After, in true bellringing fashion, we retired to the pub where I learned local church gossip. To save me getting lost in the fields again, someone gave me a lift back to the campsite.
old friends of the stars
I spent the weekend making friends with my campsite neighbour. We played Frank Turner tunes on her Bluetooth speaker, discovered other bands we both liked, and, in a surreal chain of events, managed to orchestrate the sale of her spare ticket to a friend of a friend of my sister.
My campsite neighbour asked what I do, when I am not ringing the bells or going to Frank Turner gigs. I told her I work in a church. She told me she isn’t a churchgoer, but her nan is; something about being not sure about the belief part but her nan likes the social side.
When it emerges in conversation that I work in a church, I get told this a lot.
it’s going to be biblical
I returned to All Saints East Meon on Sunday morning to ring the bells and then go to the Sunday service. The gig was that Sunday night so I wore a Frank Turner T-shirt in readiness. After the service, Frank’s mum and sister came to talk to me. We made some small talk. Frank’s mum asked me about bellringing twice. She could tell from the direction from which I had come through the church to take my place in the pews.
Was that you?
she asks.
Was that you ringing the bells?
Sunday nights are slow surrender
I went back to the campsite and told my campsite neighbour I had met Frank’s mum. Late afternoon, the gig began. Between warm-up acts, I headed to the bar.
get another round in
A guy approached me – I guess he recognised the T-shirt?
Were you at church this morning? Did you really ask Frank’s mum for a selfie?
I say yes, and yes, and, still blown away by her comments about the bellringing, I ramble about that.
That was you?
He asks, meaning me ringing the bells. He starts doing the bit about he does not go to church. But his wife does. They are staying in the village. The bells woke them up that morning so because of the fundraiser they decided to go to church.
Huh.
He repeats,
I don’t go to church
then in hushed tones, as if this was some kind of embarrassing secret
but I have the impression you are, I mean, you do
I say
Yes, I’m a Christian, yes
I have a sense that I know where this is going, but the next detail does surprise me:
I’ve told about eight people here, I think there’s a Frank Turner fan who is also a Christian. She was at church this morning and she asked Frank’s mum for a selfie. So I’ve gotta ask,
he continues
how do you square being a Christian with Frank’s track Glory Hallelujah.
Glory Hallelujah is an atheist gospel song complete with an anthemic organ opening sequence. A gospel choir proclaim There is no God over and again in the refrain.
At one point the lyrics mention bells. Okay, a bell.
Among the answers I gave, I said I was sure I was not the only Frank Turner fan who was also a Christian. For starters, most of the congregation of All Saints East Meon had turned up to help out at the gig. After the show, on the way back to my tent, I got chatting to the woman who had led the intercessions.
I talked somewhat about the role of creativity in Christian belief, and said I thought it took a fairly bitter reading to interpret Frank’s work as an atheistic rant. I have listened to his tracks quite a bit this summer – I also caught him at Kendal Calling – and the conclusion I have come to is that much of what he has to say summarises Jesus’s teachings considerably better than a number of Contemporary Christian Worship songs.
The bloke I met on the way to the bar seemed satisfied or even moved by all the answers I gave. Or maybe he was just humouring me.
The preachers and the scientists got soaked just the same
I cannot point to a moment when I knew I was called to serve God like this. The image is more like a watercolour, built up in layers, or a viewfinder, coming into focus; a puzzle in pieces; waymarks on a map. But that night, after the gig, and the conversations, and some form of witnessing the Gospel to a friend I had just made in a field in Hampshire. What got to me in that moment was the way the whole conversation had cost me nothing and required no compromise and no disassembly. What I said came easy. My words were sincere.
Just doing my job.
I went back to my tent and knew, not for the first time, that something is happening. I burst into tears.
We’ll have all the best stories to tell
The story that began back in the thesis-ridden summer of 2012 and spans more than a decade does not end that evening in a field in Hampshire either. I came home to London. I texted my siblings to tell them I had met Frank’s mum and sister and thanked my fellow bellringers for recommending that I ring the bells in East Hampshire.
Frank’s mum likes my bellringing
is one of my better anecdotes, I told everyone. I didn’t mention the tears.
Take a Polaroid picture
Right on cue, a music photographer called Casey Ryan who I follow on Instagram, posted a giveaway: tell me your coolest Frank Turner story and win a signed photo. I entered my Frank’s mum likes my bellringing tale in the comments – and won! I am now a proud owner of a signed FT photo plus a gorgeous print of Frank with his band and some Casey merch as well.

The prize! Photos by and merch from Casey Ryan.
I’ll be the preacher
There is a message somewhere in this rambling, looping tale that ties Bradley Wiggins striking a bell to a bloke with a guitar, my campsite neighbour to a friend of a friend of my sister and me to a new future. But I have not teased out quite what it is. I have a feeling that the sermon deserves more nuance than
follow Jesus – and win a signed photo!
Maybe it is more to do with the way God uses all things, all that shit that you have been through and the passions you carry and everything that you love. Becoming a Christian has opened new doors. I have taken up bellringing, and made many friends. I have not felt called to stop going to gigs.
all you ever do with your life
I have entered into the Church of England’s formal discernment process now. The discernment process is how the church determines whether a person is called to become a priest. This stage of the process involves paperwork to fill out with intrusive questions, and a series of meetings to schedule and then dread as each one approaches. I keep trying to construct a concise and palatable story out of the past two decades.
The latest form asks for a chronology of events that have shaped me and my faith and calling. My Vicar was helping me with how to approach this task. I said to her:
I wish I could just refer them to the blog
I couldn’t do this on my own.
This post comes with particular thanks to the congregation and bellringers of All Saints East Meon, and Casey Ryan.





