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Queuowulf

As I expect you both have, I’ve been wondering why I have felt so moved at the passing of the Queen, someone I never knew or even met. It is a feeling that many people seem to share, so much so that they are prepared to queue for hours, even days, just for the chance to walk past her coffin.

This might reflect no more than the love-affair that the British have with queues. However, there could be a deeper meaning to it all. Through tumultuous changes — Brexit, Covid, and everything else — the Queen was a constant we took for granted, like the sunrise in the mornings. So much so that her passing represents a shift in our national stability. Not long after I heard the news I thought, as I expect you did too,  of the closing passages in Beowulf.

After the eponymous hero’s adventures with Grendel and his mother, he lives a long life as much-loved ruler and protector of his people, the Geats, until, in old age, he dies in combat with a dragon. The Geats lament his passing, partly because his loss has removed their security — a bulwark against invasion by opportunist outsiders. I am sure you’ll immediately recall the passage that starts on line 3150:

swylce giormor-gyd Geatisc meowle
… bunden-heorde
song sorg-cearig. Sæde geneahhe,
Þæt hio hyre here-geongas hearde ondrede
wæl-fylla worn, werudes egesan,
hynðo ond hæft-nyd. Heofon rece swealg.

Which in Seamus Heaney‘s translation reads

A Geat woman too sang out in grief;
with hair bound up, she unburdened herself
of her worst fears, a wild litany
of nightmare and lament: her nation invaded,
enemies on the rampage, bodies in piles,
slavery and abasement. Heaven swallowed the smoke.

Then there is the more recent, very lively translation by Maria Dahvana Headley, which reads

Then another dirge rose, woven uninvited
by a Geatish woman, louder than the rest.
She tore her hair and screamed her horror
at the hell that was to come: more of the same.
Reaping, raping, feasts of blood, iron fortunes
marching across her country, claiming her body.
The sky sipped the smoke and smiled.

Both translations are rather free, partly because the text in the one surviving smoke-singed copy we have is rather ropey, and parts of the passage quoted are either illegible or missing. (This didn’t stop the noted medievalist Tom Shippey referring in my hearing to Seamus Heaney as ‘Shameless’ Heaney). At times of national crisis and brouhaha I turn to the comforting solidity of Tolkien who rendered the same passage in prose:

There too a lamentable lay many a Geatish maiden with braided tresses for Beowulf made, singing in sorrow, oft repeating that days of evil she sorely feared, many a slaying cruel and terror armed, ruin and thraldom’s bond. The smoke faded in the sky.

The translations vary (on the whole I prefer Headley’s for its brutal immediacy), but the sense of all is clear. Now, I do not think that the immediate consequence of the death of our Queen will be invasion by barbarous hordes bent on destruction. But I sense that, deep down, beneath the ordered calm of our world, the passing of a much-loved monarch after a very long reign has stirred up something atavistic, a memory of past horrors. Which might explain the urge to come together in a festival of communal mourning.

Which, in Britain, takes the form of a queue as long as Jörmungandr.

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Impostors at a Conference

September has always been a busy time for conferences, and I have attended a fair few in my time. However, the one I attended this week was the first scientific one I recall having impostor syndrome publicly mentioned several times, both explicitly and implicitly. This was the conference to mark (belatedly) my retirement, and it was all of joyous, moving and weird from my perspective. No doubt there are other perspectives! You can read the report from the editor of Physics World, Matin Durrani, my former student and active participant in the meeting, to get a different view.

The conference covered many topics, because my research and scientific activities have, and a wide variety of different themes were teased out. It was organised, necessarily twice because the pandemic prevented the first manifestation coming to pass, by my long term friends and collaborators Richard Jones and Ruth Cameron. Ruth was my student; Richard technically was not, but as he put it I ‘offered a helping hand to waifs and orphans’ when his supervisor left the country. Listening to others describe my career, gave a very peculiar feeling. Who is this person whose life seems so logical and tidy, for instance, according to the narrative Richard constructed to open the meeting? I suppose the meeting fulfilled the wish Robert Burns expressed in his poem To a Louse

O wad some Pow’r the giftie gie us
To see oursels as ithers see us!’
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Research is full of dead ends, which if introduced would no doubt have spoilt the narrative. So Richard did not mention the thesis of a student whose every experiment came up with a null result, for instance, and glossed over the episode of the tilting cartridge I mentioned in my last blogpost, as well as other hiccoughs on the route to what I know appears to be a highly successful career.

My memories of the meeting, even only 48 hours later, are already rather a blur; there was too much emotion tied up in listening to all the talks for great clarity of recollection. I think it was Matin who described what he felt was the pecking order in the Cavendish when he arrived, with theoretical particle physicists at the top and the sort of work my group was doing in the messy world of soft matter (polymers, biopolymers, cement, food, starch granules, paint….all got a mention during the meeting) somewhere near the bottom. And also, how he felt that he was an impostor, even if he didn’t know the phrase at the time.

The idea of a pecking order is interesting: there are many versions of it in science of course, but there is absolutely no doubt that a complex system was, back in the 1990s when Matin joined me, all but beyond the collective department’s pale. I have not forgotten the comments from the (by then retired) Cavendish Professor, Sir Brian Pippard, that ‘things have come to a sad pass when people at the Cavendish study starch’. Matin wasn’t studying starch itself, but aqueous mixtures of biopolymers, relevant to many foodstuffs, during what Richard had termed ‘The Cheesy Wotsit years’ in his talk. (Yes, I worked on the vanilla version of Cheesy Wotsits, aka known as extruded starch foams, i.e. the wotsit sans flavourings and colour.) That was, and is, the kind of comment that can sap morale, and make one wonder what one is doing in a department, but I guess I’m fairly obstinate and I wasn’t going to let that derail me, whatever the angst the remark caused.

Matin was talking in a panel discussion on the difficulties of interdisciplinary working. Having my REF Interdisciplinary Advisory Panel colleague, anthropologist Veronica Strang, on the panel introduced a fascinating social science perspective on the challenges (in itself highlighting the importance of interdisciplinarity). She pointed out how the ‘other’ can invoke hostility, and I guess being interdisciplinary will always be ‘other’ to those who stick to the straight and narrow. Our current structures – departments and funding panels for instance – tend to favour monodisciplinary approaches, in part because of the teaching demands a department must handle. The panel itself was all the richer for its disciplinary diversity (the third speaker was Mark Leake, current chair of the IOP’s Biological Physics group of which I was the founding chair).

I got to say a few words after the dinner, and I returned to the impostor syndrome theme, this time explicitly. Regular readers of this blog will know that it is a topic I feel needs a good airing (e.g here) and it is a feeling that I am not ashamed to admit to. However, I still get the feeling that students and early career researchers imagine it is something one overcomes and then life is easier. I suspect most people suffer from it, whether or not they’ve got a label for their feelings, and I suspect for few of us does it dissipate, even if success attends us. Certainly, on the second day, there were several more senior scientists admitting to it, male and female. It can only be healthy for it to be acknowledged. It is good if it sneaks into a regular science session, rather than one simply aimed at confidence building or solely for women. We all bring our whole selves to our scientific endeavour, and impostor syndrome may well be part of that self.

However, it wasn’t a conference about impostor syndrome! I was touched by the way some of my former students recalled advice I had given them all those years ago. Advice such as ‘don’t be afraid to say no’, and ‘negotiate a better starting package’, were what erstwhile postdoc Aline Miller recalled (as well as ‘don’t wear jeans or they may think you’re a student’) when she went to take up a lectureship. The photo here that I took during Joe Keddie’s talk, about watching paint dry, indicates what he remembers of my advice, possibly updated overnight to bring in the imposter syndrome theme. (Joe was actually not working directly with me, but with Richard, but we wrote several papers together literally about watching paint dry. Much more interesting than you might imagine.) I would stand by all these pieces of advice and it moves me to think people took my messages to heart and still remember them so many years later.

Joe Keddie's conclusions AMD conference

I guess I really am retired now, now the conference is over (although I am of course still Master of Churchill College for another two years). It was a wonderful conference, delightful to see my former students and postdocs thriving, delightful to be able to meet in person. Thank you to all of them. I hope they continue to thrive as I melt into the background.

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What It Must Have Been Like To Be The Queen

Many years ago when the world was young I was one of the four Vice Presidents of the Linnean Society of London. Each year the society would have a ‘conversazione’ — basically a drinks party — in some nice location, preferably of scientific or historic significance. One year it was to be held at Down House, the home of Charles Darwin. A duty of the President was to welcome guests to the event, shaking hands, smiling and finding some suitably anodyne words of welcome. As the conversazione was the society’s ‘Ladies’ Night’ the President was expected to be accompanied by their spouse. (This was quite a few unreconstructed years ago – I am pleased to say that the Society now has a female President). That year, the President couldn’t attend (field work abroad); one VP was ineligible (going through a divorce); the other two couldn’t make it (for reasons I can no longer remember) so the baton was passed to me.

After work me and Mrs Gee hoofed it as fast as possible to Down House; were ushered into an upstairs room to change into our posh frocks; and were then stood in the front hall of Down House to welcome the guests. We stood there for some hours. The floor was very, very hard. The guests just kept on coming. After they had all arrived we had a very quick chance to enjoy the party and take a look at the inside of Down House. Then we went home.

We were dog tired. Our feet ached from standing on that hard floor. Our hands ached from all the handshakes. Even our faces ached from all the forced smiling. The last thing I remember before falling gratefully asleep was Mrs Gee saying ‘now I know what it feels like to be the Queen’.

And that was for just a couple of hours.

Imagine having to endure day after day of it, week after week, for more than seventy years.

In the immortal words of Paddington Bear: thank you Ma’am. For everything.

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Of the Rings of Power

By now you’ll both have gathered that I have a passing interest in the works of J. R. R. Tolkien, so I hope you won’t mind that I attempt a review of the first two episodes of The Rings of Power, a televisual emission by Amazon Prime. The take-home message is that I enjoyed them very much and I am looking forward keenly to how the story develops. In what follows THERE ARE SPIDERS SPOILERS so if you don’t want to know the plot, please find something else to read forthwith fifthwith.

The story takes place thousands of years before the events of The Hobbit or The Lord of the Rings, but in the same fictional universe, and one or two of the characters will be familiar. It starts with Galadriel (yes, that one), but as a child, playing with her friends in the eternal bliss of Valinor, the Blessed Realm. Even then we see that she’s a member of the awkward squad, and has to be consoled by her elder brother, Finrod. When Galadriel grows up, the Great Enemy, Morgoth, ravages the Blessed Realm; kills the two shining trees that illuminate it; and escapes to Middle Earth. He is chased by Galadriel and many of the Elves, and after a long war in which many Elves, including her beloved brother Finrod, are killed, Morgoth is finally defeated. All this is delivered in a long spoken preamble by Galadriel herself.

Many Elves go back over the sea to Valinor, but some remain in Middle Earth in the kingdom of Lindon, ruled by the High King, Gil-Galad. Everyone is convinced that Evil has finally been expunged from the Earth, but, oh no, not our Gal. She is especially concerned that Sauron, Morgoth’s greatest servant, was never found, and that he might still be fomenting general disorder and brouhaha.

The action starts — eventually — with ‘Commander’ Galadriel leading a posse of increasingly reluctant elves to the Far North in search of signs of Sauron. She finds a distinctive tridentine sigil which she believes is a sign of his passing, but it appears to be very ancient. After a battle with a snow troll, the elves retreat. Back home in Lindon, Gil-Galad honours the Elvish commandos with a one-way trip to Valinor. Galadriel, persisting in her belief that Evil still walks, jumps ship just before Valinor is reached, and, in a scene perhaps inescapably reminiscent of The Raft of the Medusa by Gericault, falls in with shipwrecked sailors. After encounters with sea monsters and storms, only one man is left. He confesses to Galadriel that he has escaped the ravages of Sauron’s orcs — not in the Frozen North, but in the ‘Southlands’, the area that will one day become Gondor (there are helpful maps). Galadriel and her friend are rescued by a passing ship, which I guess belongs to the seafaring Numenoreans, but that’s for the next episode. Back in Lindon, Gil-Galad confesses to his herald, Elrond (yes, that one) that Galadriel might well be correct that Evil still walks, but that her agitation might stir up things that might be better left undisturbed.

At the same time, we see humans living in the Southlands. Just as the elves are relaxing their guard, various disturbing events show that orcs are still about, and there is a sequence of truly spellbinding horror as a human woman, Bronwyn, confronts and kills one in her own home.

But back to Gil-Galad, who sends young Elrond to the elven city of Eregion, in the shadow of the Misty Mountains, where the noted elven smith Celebrimbor requires help with a new project (no prizes for guessing what that will be). In Celebrimbor’s workshop Elrond admires the hammer with which Fëanor, greatest of all elven craftsmen, forged the Silmarils, the three great jewels wherein the only remaining light of the Two Trees is captured — and which were stolen by Morgoth. (Elrond and Celebrimbor discuss this, but we aren’t told that Fëanor was Celebrimbor’s grandfather). Celebrimbor, however, doesn’t have the manpower. Elrond decides to recruit dwarves from the nearby Kingdom of Khazad-Dûm — the ruins of which we see as the Mines of Moria in The Fellowship of the Ring — but which is then at its height. He has a hard time of it, though, and has to work hard to convince an old friend, Prince Durin, heir to the throne, of his plans.

Then, there are the harfoots. These proto-hobbits live a wandering life east of the Misty Mountains, by the Great River, and we focus on one group in which a small girl called Elanor Brandyfoot cannot help poking her nose into things she shouldn’t, and so is irresistibly drawn to the site of a fallen meteor that appears to not to be a meteorite, but a man, understandably dishevelled and incoherent, but capable of powerful magic. His identity is a mystery. (I think he’s Sauron).

And that’s as far as we’ve got.

It’s a slow start, perhaps inevitably, as we have to get up to speed with the underlying back story. However, after A Game of Thrones we are used to having to deal with several different stories happening at once, some of them rather complicated, so that’s not as much of a problem as it might be. The acting is okay: Morfydd Clark has to carry a great deal as all-action heroine Galadriel, and does a fine job of it, too, and people will have fun spotting well-known names among the cast, beneath all those prostheses, notably Lenny Henry as a harfoot village elder. But hey, this is genre fiction, not Shakespeare, and I am reminded of an anecdote told by the late Leonard Cohen who, just before he was due to go on stage, admits to his lawyer (his ‘plus one’ – but, you know, maybe everyone else was busy) that he was worried about his inability to sing. ‘If I wanted singing’, his lawyer says, ‘I’d have gone to the Met’. And after all, The Rings of Power looks beautiful. It sounds beautiful, too, with a title score by Howard Shore (Peter Jackson’s musical consigliere for all the Lord of the Rings and Hobbit films) and incidental music by Bear McCreary (Outlander).

But is it true to Tolkien? My short answer — who cares? I do not subscribe to the more purist tendency among Tolkien fans that views any deviation from the canon as sacrilege. In one of his letters (I haven’t yet discovered which, someone will surely remind me) Tolkien said that he once had this grand scheme (‘my crest has long since fallen’) to create a grand mythology in which some parts are described in detail, but others merely sketched, and that others would come along to add their own contributions in various media. In which case, any adaptation has to be criticised on its own terms, and not with reference to the material on which it is more-or-less loosely based.

If pressed though, I’d say that yes, it is consistent with Tolkien’s legendarium. At least, so far. After all, the action in The Rings of Power takes place in the Second Age, perhaps the most sketchy part of Tolkien’s own mythology, so there is plenty of scope for invention that is not part of the canon, but which does not violate it.

Some might baulk at Galadriel as a kind of Xena Warrior Princess, but if they do, they shouldn’t. This is entirely canonical. Even in the Hobbit she is seen as fairly ferocious (Tolkien describes Galadriel’s take-down of Sauron in a few lines, offstage), and the young Galadriel, in the Silmarillion, is described as vigorous and strong-willed. Her initial search for Sauron in the far North makes sense, too — for that was where Morgoth’s stronghold was originally located.

My only niggle — and it is only a very slight niggle — is why the harfoots speak what sounds like an Irish brogue. Even Lenny Henry, who I know for a fact comes from the West Midlands. To be sure, one somehow expects the rough-and-tough dwarves to speak Glaswegian, but to have the twee leprechaun-like harfoots speaking the way they do might seem just a little bit patronising. Perhaps I am over-thinking it. But then, as a Jew, I was concerned that J. K. Rowling, (even before she blundered, entirely unnecessarily, into a debate about transgender rights) had depicted the goblins in the Harry Potter universe as caricatures straight out of Nazi antisemitic propaganda — clever, but selfish, wizened and ugly, and entirely concerned with money. The cast of The Rings of Power is refreshingly diverse, but as diversity is increasingly embraced, sensitivities are only magnified.

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The Cromer Chainsaw Massacre

Cast your mind back more than a decade, to 2011, when the Gees were thinking of doing some serious remodelling to the Maison des Girrafes. Around that time, a local DIY store was having a closing-down sale, so we went along en famille to see if we could pick up any budget tins of paint, brushes &c &c and so on and so forth in like fashion. Wandering around the store, Offspring#2, aged 11, piped up, in a very small voice:

Please may I have a paint roller?

to which Offspring#1, aged 13 and already showing signs of demonic possession teenage rebellion said

Please may I have a chainsaw?

a request followed by the rider

I’d use it responsibly.

since when I have adopted a healthy respect for all power tools and prefer to use hand tools wherever possible. Recent events, however, have exposed cracks in this resolution, which have now become yawning fissures as I have now bought – you guessed it — a chainsaw.

In mitigation m’lud I was driven to it. Down the bottom of the garden is a Buddleia bush thicket triffid tree which despite my efforts at pruning it, over years, just comes back even bigger and more brutally invasive than before, growing twenty feet or more into the air and with the trunk as tall as I am and as thick as a wrestler’s thigh. For the past two or three years it has got quite beyond my long-handled loppers or even a handsaw and the thing started laughing at me each time I passed. Rustling menacingly, at any rate. The time had come for a clash of the titans – it was either me, or that bush. This garden ain’t big enough for the both of us.

So, after the bush had finished flowering (people unaccountably like these horrible invasive weeds bushes presumably because they are supposed to attract butterflies) I hied forthwith fifthwith to my local Boutique de Bricolage and bought — drum roll — a chainsaw.

Just in case you were imagining some giant, gas-guzzling, ear-splittingly loud, smoke-belching devourer of rainforests, unliftable except by musclebound stogie-chewing lumberjacks, the chainsaw I bought is electric, and cordless. I mean, even cars these days are electric and cordless, so it was bound to pack some whoomph, even if it looked (relatively) unthreatening.

I read the instructions, which were less about how to operate it, than Ho To Use It  Responsibly. The chainsaw, the batteries, even the plastic bag in which it was packed, were festooned with warnings about misuse, so much so that I was almost afraid to turn it on.

Almost.

After a couple of false starts during which I learned how to tension the chain properly, I got to work. Mere minutes later, I could announce that VICTORY WAS MINE. The Buddleia lay in huge piles of brushwood all over the garden that I shall enjoy clearing up tomorrow. The thick sections of trunk I shall haul into the chicken run for the hens to play on.

I can’t express how good this feels.

A decade-long grudge match is now resolved. Only a remnant of the original plant remains. Yes, it will sprout again, because I have learned that nothing — nothing — will stop this plant short of a direct nuclear strike from orbit, but at least I shall be able to keep it in manageable limits. From now on, this Buddleia will know who’s boss.

I see the flowering currant bush that’s seeded itself next to the splintered ruins of the Buddleia could do with some attention. I swear that it quakes in terror when I glance in its direction…

 

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Dodgy Encounters with a Fragile Piece of Equipment

Doing a PhD is hard work, stressful and uncertain. Even with the most understanding of supervisors, the clearest goals and routes to get there, there will be hiccoughs and worse en route to getting the letters after your name. And, of course, for many, things will be tougher than ideal circumstances might imply, with lack of clarity over the objectives, equipment that does not work and peers who rub you up the wrong way (or worse).

My PhD is a long, long time ago. In speeches, for instance to the College’s graduate students, I point out that mistakes and disasters during the course of research are only to be expected and certainly need not be terminal. Just because things go wrong is no indicator the student is inevitably not cut out for research.  The particular mistake I made that I recall most vividly was repeatedly breaking a delicate piece of equipment (the tilting cartridge for a Siemens 102 transmission electron microscope, aka a TEM, if you’re really interested). It could be – and was – fixed by the skilled workshop technician who, strangely, was the father of the technician in my own group 20 years later. Perfecting such technical skills was obviously something that ran in the family, along with a great desire to help the novice researcher find their feet.

Talking about breaking this piece of kit, time after time, is something that feels worth spelling out to help those setting out on their careers that failure doesn’t mean they should walk away from their PhD. I’m not afraid to admit I was completely ham-fisted, something I had always suspected. It was not by accident that my final undergraduate year was dedicated to theoretical  and not experimental physics; I thought I knew my limitations, but then decided a theoretical PhD was even more beyond me than tangling with equipment.

This all comes back to me because I have been sorting through the letters I wrote to my mother during those turbulent months in the second term of my PhD, spelling out just how difficult I was finding things (retrieved from her house after her death). They contain a level of detail I had forgotten. I knew I had left Cambridge for a couple of weeks, retiring to my mother’s house and feeling most uncertain whether I should continue with research. I came to the decision ‘I was not a quitter’, quite explicitly, and made my way back to Cambridge to try again. But, what I had forgotten was it wasn’t all plain sailing from then on. I appear to have found it really hard even to set foot in the department: the first day I popped in for just a few minutes, that being all I could face. I obviously – and this is what I’d forgotten – had to screw my courage up to breaking point to get going again. It seems I slowly built up the confidence to spend a whole day in the department, and ultimately to start doing experiments again.

Whether or when, during the course of my PhD, I ever used that particular tilting stage again I cannot be sure. I do recollect that much of my work was done on a different make of TEM, and the central point of the project was to use a brand-new microscope, a scanning transmission electron microscope (or STEM), which arrived early on in my time, being only the second such instrument in the UK. I also know that the results that formed the meat of the thesis (from the STEM experiments) were almost certainly incorrectly interpreted, and that the part of my research that has stood the test of time (still cited just a couple of months ago) was a completely accidental finding. Serendipity is a wonderful thing.

The tilting cartridge for the Siemens instrument reappeared in my life in a much more positive way during my postdoc years in the States, although again being ham-fisted was relevant. By the time I had started my second postdoc, and moved from an unsatisfactory attempt studying metals to (amorphous) polymers, I was confident enough to tackle the Siemens again, with the same sort of delicate cartridge. However…I didn’t break it, but I managed to fail to zero the angle of tilt, thereby observing the craze (a precursor to a crack in a material like polystyrene) not at normal incidence. The tip of the craze was therefore splayed out in a way that hadn’t been observed before. Eureka – it supported a theory about what the craze tip would look like, as my wonderful supervisor Ed Kramer instantly spotted. Once I’d satisfactorily proved I could reproduce the results, obtain stereoscopic pairs of images (i.e. two images with a small and controlled angle of tilt between them that allowed a 3D reconstruction under an appropriate viewer), a paper was rapidly penned. This was within about 6-8 weeks of starting working with Ed. My life was transformed. Another piece of accidental mayhem, it couldn’t even be called serendipity on my part though perhaps it was on Ed’s, but this time with a happy ending.

The rest of my career, as they say, is history. It could so easily have ended after my first encounter with that fragile tilting cartridge; I might have gone off and become a teacher or worked in industry, who knows. In which case, there would be no blog, no strings of papers or letters after my name. So much is chance, and one should never forget it. I was lucky. Far too many people get discouraged, lost or break things (like me) and move away, perhaps completely away from science. Research is full of luck and serendipity. I have always tried to tell my students that. Shortly I will have the pleasure of meeting up with many of them, and collaborators more generally, at a conference to mark my retirement, albeit two years late due to the pandemic. I’m very much looking forward to seeing once more many of the people who have made so much difference to my professional life.

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A Declaration on Bicycle Assessment – the Decision

Reader, I bought a Brompton.

Folded Brompton

After all my research – and a considerable amount of humming and haa-ing – I finally took Henry’s advice and went to my local bike shop to test-ride a couple of different eBike models. The cheaper one on offer there didn’t work out – easy enough to ride and a motor with plenty of power, but nothing like the compactness of the folded Brompton. In the end, I decided that was going to be the most critical factor since I need to take the bike on a train to get to work.

At just over £3,000 for the six-speed Electric C-line Explore model the Brompton was one on the most expensive options, but the cost is mitigated since I can buy the eBike through the Cycle-to-Work scheme. This allows me to pay in 12 instalments that are deducted from my monthly salary before tax. Since I am in the higher tax bracket, that knocks about a grand off the purchase price. Not bad – my thanks to the government.

I took delivery yesterday and did my first commute to work today. It was… good. I reckon it will get better the more I get used to the journey.

The motor has three settings which balance power and range. I reckon I will stick to No. 2 for most use but on the return home this evening, with its long, slow climb, I switched to No. 3. The motor kicks in as soon as you start pedalling and made the ride quick and easy. Quicker than the bus, and not too sweaty.

I had a little trouble with the bright sunlight which made seeing the road a little tricky at times. London may be a great city, but its roads are pitted and uneven. On the way up to Hyde Park Corner from Victoria, I narrowly avoided a pot-hole that would have swallowed the front wheel of the Brompton and sent me flying.

Otherwise, the main thing I need to work on is my folding technique. I missed trains by seconds going to work and going home because I haven’t yet mastered the twists and turns of the mechanism that reduces the bike to a neat little package. When I got off at Victoria Station this morning, I discovered that I’d somehow managed to catch the hook that locks the front wheel to the frame around the chain. All of the other passengers trooped past me as I struggled to unfold my contraption. I tried not to catch anyone’s eye.

Tomorrow, I go again.

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What I Read In August

UntitledEdward Gibbon: The Decline and Fall of the Roman Empire (vol 2) (Folio Society Edition) I bought a handsome 8-volume set of Gibbon’s classic history cheaply on eBay. Attentive readers will note that I reviewed volume 1 last month, so I invite you to consult that quarter for the generalities. This volume gets stuck in to the fourth century and covers the reigns from Diocletian (ruled 284-305) to Julian (361-363). The focus, inevitably, is on Constantine (306-337), the first Emperor to espouse Christianity. The text breaks from narrative history (basically, just one damned thing after another) to analyse the early Church, and its tenacity given three centuries of persecution. However, persecution was leavened by long periods of tolerance, partly because the Romans really didn’t know what to make of this new-fangled creed. Roman religion was cheerfully polytheistic, and religious adherence was more a civic duty rather than a profound revelatory experience. Christianity, on the other hand, took the strict monotheism and hatred of idolatry of its  Mosaic antecedent, and added to that a promise of transcendent afterlife, the attainment of which demanded abstention from just about everything that made life worth living. The Roman view of Christianity was mostly one of  bemused bafflement. It was the refusal to make customary sacrifices to the Roman Gods — and the habit of Christians to meet together in secret to discuss who-knew-what — that led to the persecution. I admit that historiography has moved on since Gibbon’s time, but his more nuanced arguments about Christianity seemed fresh and new to someone who was taught that Diocletian persecuted Christians (BAD); Constantine espoused Christianity (GOOD), and Julian turned away from Christianity (BAD). Diocletian persecuted Christians — eventually, and after much provocation. Constantine embraced Christianity — eventually, and after much prevarication. But Diocletian’s long rule (for a Roman Emperor) instituted sweeping changes in government necessary for the management of a huge and sprawling Empire already in advanced decay, and which almost collapsed completely in the third century. To do this he divided the Empire in two — he ruled in the East, his capital at Nicomedia, not far from ancient Troy, while a co-Emperor was based at Milan, closer to the troublesome provinces of Illyria and the Danubian frontier. Rome itself was increasingly marginalised as a den of antiquity. But each emperor had an under-Emperor, making four, the so-called Tetrarchy. And, with frequent usurpations, as many as six. Constantine belied his nascent Christianity by murdering almost all his relatives. He made his new capital in the sleepy town of Byzantium, once a Greek colony, and built on Diocletian’s reforms by creating a vast bureaucracy that was too often prey to corruption and intrigue. The young Julian, exiled to the Academy of Athens, picked up his learning from ancient Greek tradition, so it was no surprise that when he emerged from seclusion to assume the Purple he had no interest in Christianity. He was also a capable general, countering massive invasions of Gaul by sundry barbarians, and tried to  thin out the top-heavy bureaucracy instituted by Diocletian. His military efforts, as Diocletian’s in the sphere of government, delayed the eventual collapse of the Western Empire. As Gibbon writes, what is remarkable is not that the Roman Empire collapsed, but that it stayed together for as long as it did, and is in part thanks to the work of Diocletian and Julian that it persisted. The standard view of Constantine’s conversion to Christianity was that he had a vision of the Cross just before his victory against co-emperor Maxentius at the Battle of the Milvian Bridge in 312. Gibbon assumes that everyone will know this story, which is why Betty Radice’s introductory notes were essential reading. Gibbon caused much consternation in his time for his sympathy towards polytheism and his often scathing denunciations of the foibles of the early church. To this modern reader innocent of the tides of historical thought, his relatively even-handed view made a refreshing change.
UntitledAlastair Reynolds: Century Rain By now you’ll both have gathered that I am rather fond of the SF of Alastair Reynolds, having reviewed a book set in his ‘Revelation Space’ Universe in June, and the final instalment of his Revenger trilogy last month. Century Rain is a stand-alone novel and perhaps all the better for it. When I started to read it, though, imagining I had never read it before, I had that peculiar sensation of deja lu – yes, I had read it before, but had forgotten all about it. I attribute this to my failing brain, however, because it’s a cracker. Verity Auger is 22nd-Century archaeologist gingerly picking over the remains of Paris in an Earth made uninhabitable by a nanotechnological holocaust. After an accident in which she is responsible for the death of a student, she is steamrollered into a mission to journey down a wormhole to the Paris of 1959 to recover papers by a secret agent, Susan White. But this is not the Paris of our 1959. In this version of Earth, the Second World War never happened, and the Paris of the 1950s has the technology of the 1930s. In this alt.hist. Paris, Susan White has been murdered, and her worried landlord and patron commissions washed-up jazz musician and private dick Wendell Floyd to investigate. So, apart from the  whizzy futuristic space adventure one expects from Reynolds, there is a significant noir element, almost to a degree of self-parody. An American in Paris, who is a jazz musician turned PD. With a name like Wendell Floyd. Who has a burly associate called Custine, and a vampish black-clad German chanteuse ex-girlfriend called Greta, who at any moment you expect to ask What The Boys In The Back Room Will Have. Naturally, romantic sparks fly between hot-headed Auger and world-weary Floyd, but you know it’ll never work. Near the end, you can just about hear Casablanca:

  ‘I want you to remember me. Whenever you walk these streets … know that I’ll also be walking them. It may not be the same Paris, but –‘

‘It’s still Paris.’

‘And we’ll always have it,’ Auger said.

The thing is, the noir styling suits what elsewhere in Reynolds’ fiction can grate — that is, the habit of the characters to talk to one another in pithy, sarcastic asides. Here is suits the text down to the ground. And all this in a package so sharp it might cut itself and with a plot twistier than a nest of vipers learning how to crochet. I loved it.

UntitledPaul Morland Tomorrow’s People While writing a recent book and musing on the possible extinction of humanity, I became interested in demography, and in so doing came across this book, which promises a look over the edge at the near future of humanity. Although packed with facts, it fails, ultimately, to deliver. It would be fair to say that Morland stands on the centre-right of politics, and has very little sympathy for doom-mongers that preach imminent catastrophe, whether from climate change or overpopulation. And with good reason — Marxist policies on feeding populations have always led to disaster (‘Marxism Today: Famine Tomorrow’); and, in any case, doomsayers make political capital from preaching bad news. As Morland shows, the world’s human population is ageing, and is set to top out and begin a decline perhaps towards the end of the present century. In many countries it is below the natural replacement rate. In recent centuries the world has undergone at least one,  and in many cases two, so-called demographic transitions. In the first, life expectancy at birth is increased but fertility remains high, so the population balloons. This is essentially what happened in Britain in the Industrial Revolution and led Thomas Malthus to predict widespread starvation. Paul Ehrlich was still doing this in 1968 in his book The Population Bomb when world population growth was at its peak (more on that later). But then came the second demographic transition, when people moved to cities and had fewer children. This is what is happening now in most countries. In some the population is contracting at a remarkable rate, and whole swathes of countryside have been abandoned in countries as varied and widespread as Bulgaria, Russia and Japan. City dwellers have less environmental impact than people in the country. And there’s another side benefit – older populations tend to be less warlike. On the whole, there are fewer conflicts in the world than there used to be. The big exception is sub-Saharan Africa. Africa — and especially West Africa — is in the throes of the first but not the second demographic transition. As Morland shows, the population of Africa is booming even as it is shrinking elsewhere. Tomorrow’s people are likely to be more African than Chinese or Indian. After noting that the population of Africa will be four billion in 2100, I was waiting in vain for the other shoe to drop. A burgeoning population is a young population, and bellicose. The increasing drought in the Sahel adds to the endemic corruption and poor governance that are ever exploited by revolution and war. The ravages of Islamist militancy in countries such as Mali make few headlines. The multi-nation war that rages, on and off, in the Congo Basin, even fewer. Europe is already feeling the pressure of northward migration as conflict and climate make life in parts of Africa increasingly intolerable. Eventually, Africa will settle down, and the population will start to decline. Most migration in Africa stays within that continent, and the movement is generally towards mega-cities such as Lagos, after which the second demographic transition will take place. But the road before that might be rocky. Morland really should have said so.

UntitledPaul Ehrlich: The Population Bomb This is a small book that took a long time to read. The reason is that it was so noisome. Not the actual content (though that had its moments) but the book itself. I bought my copy secondhand for more than twice the cost of my eight-volume, slipcased edition of The Decline and Fall of the Roman Empire, and by the greasy feel — and the smell — it seems to have spent most of the time since it was printed (in 1970, but the book was first published in 1968) in the home of a chain smoker who lived in a damp cellar warmed sporadically by a paraffin lamp. So I could only stand reading a few pages at a time after which I had to wash my hands to get rid of the residue. Now, to the content. The Population Bomb is one of those polemics that I expect are more admired than read. It was written at a time when the rate of population growth was at its peak (more than 2 per cent annually). The spur seems to have been the author’s visit to India:

The streets seemed alive with people. People eating, people washing, people sleeping. People visiting, arguing, and screaming … People defecating and urinating. People clinging to buses. People herding animals. People, people, people, people.

The rest of the book is a plea to control human population by any humane means necessary. Some of the book’s messages — especially about pollution and the environment — were no doubt visionary for the time.  Some of the things he says, though, seem calculated to make enemies. At one point he seems to castigate American biomedical science for focusing on treatments to prolong lives rather than prevent new ones, what Ehrlich calls ‘death control’ as opposed to ‘birth control’:

The establishment of American biology consists primarily of death-controllers: those interested in intervening in population processes only by lowering death rates.

Although he does nod to the possibility of improved crops supporting larger populations (the ‘Green Revolution’ was in its infancy), he completely fails to understand anything other than the problem of a bulk increase in population. That, for example, populations can change; they can age; that people can decide to have fewer children; that people can be socially mobile. Even in India.  Despite a brave advocacy of abortion — the book was published five years before Roe v. Wade — he completely fails to discuss the revolution in female emancipation which over the past few decades has improved the lot of humanity without any of the occasionally draconian top-down suggestions proposed to control population. The world today has almost three times as many people as it did when Ehrlich wrote this book. And they are, on the whole, better fed, better educated and healthier than they were then. I am glad I read this book, if only as a historical document. Now I must go and wash my hands again.

Screenshot 2022-08-15 at 22.23.55Dan Simmons: Lovedeath Astute readers will note that the work of Dan Simmons appears frequently in these annals. Simmons exists at the literary end of the horror/SF spectrum, so much so that some of his work (such as Phases of Gravity) features neither SF nor horror. At his best, he fictionalises some real event and adds a very slight SF/horror twist. Perhaps the best known is The Terror, based on what might have happened to the Franklin expedition to search for the Northwest Passage after its disappearance (a novel recently adapted for televisual emission). My favourite is Drood, an account of the last days of Charles Dickens as recounted in a fictionalised account by Dickens’ very real but unreliable and laudanum-addled friend Wilkie Collins. Lovedeath, although literary in places, features a mite of SF and lashings of horror. It is a collection of five novellas, each in its own style, on the general theme of Love and Death (hence the overall title). The first is the memoir of a risk-averse insurance loss-adjuster; the second a squirm-inducing horror story set in Bangkok. Another, Flashback, is the mite of SF in the collection (Simmons expanded the theme at greater length in a novel of the same name). A fourth is a kind of myth quest set among the Lakota Sioux. Simmons saves the best until last with The Great Lover, a message-in-a-bottle type tale featuring the edited transcript of  a ‘lost’ diary written by fictional war poet James Edward Rooke during his time on the Somme in 1916. Scenes of gut-churning carnage are interspersed with Rooke’s highly charged vision of ‘The Lady’, who Rooke takes to be a metaphor for death. Or is she? I should add that this collection is not for the squeamish. The sex scenes are frequent and explicit, the violence even more so, but all saved, just about, by the quality of the writing. It is indeed rather strong meat, and perhaps should have been called Sex, Violence and Violent Sex.

Screenshot 2022-08-19 at 08.37.07Darrell Bricker and John Ibbitson: Empty Planet This is the third book on the future of the human population I have read this month, and I have to say it was every bit as disappointing as the other two: Paul Morland’s Tomorrow’s People and Paul Ehrlich’s The Population Bomb. Morland failed to deliver on the promise of his title, and Ehrlich was just plain wrong (perhaps not his fault). Bricker and Ibbitson are closer to Morland in that they predict wholesale population decline in the coming decades, as the Total Fertility Rate, or TFR – the average number of children any woman will have in her lifetime — dips below replacement rate (about 2.1) just about everywhere. The cause (which the authors tell us to a wearisome degree) is urbanisation, which goes hand in hand with increased education and female emancipation, which lead to conscious decisions to have fewer children. The authors suggest that the UN might have ulterior motives in suggesting that the global population will top out at just over 11.2 billion, claiming they know better, and that the total might be less, even as low as nine billion. They get their knowledge from talking to the occasional academic and their own focus groups of young people from all over the world, from Brussels to Nairobi, Delhi to Sao Paulo. Someone should have told them that the plural of ‘anecdote’ is not ‘data’. The book degenerates by slow degrees into a soggy mire of politically correct self-congratulation in which the authors praise Canada  as a beacon of multiculturalism (the authors are Canadian), but they don’t put their heads above the parapet and tell us very much about what the world will look like in the next century or two. Ehrlich went overboard on environmental degradation and the threat it poses to humanity. Morland barely touches on it, and neither do Bricker and Ibbitson. When will the planet be as empty as the title promises? In the end we are left in the dark. I have yet to read a decent book on the future of the human population. Perhaps I shall have to write it myself. Meanwhile, it’s back to the Roman Empire…

UntitledEdward Gibbon: The Decline and Fall of the Roman Empire (vol. 3) (Folio Society edition). Now well into the Fourth Century, this volume deals with the pushback of paganism against Christianity under Julian ‘The Apostate’, to its final defeat under Theodosius the Great (379-395). The interval covered is quite short — less than forty years — but Gibbon treats with it at length, partly because he finds much to admire in the character of Julian. Although Julian reigned for just sixteen months (between 361 and 363), his life was full of incident and unusually well documented. Despite his fondness for the traditional rites of Rome, Julian was an excellent general, who kept the invading Franks and Alemanni at bay on the Rhine frontier. He overreached himself, however, in a disastrous campaign against the Persians during which he lost his life. Gibbon treats the travails of the early church with his usual amused detachment, especially the lingering controversy on the relationship between Christ and God. The Athanasians, who followed the ruling of the Council of Nicaea in 325 at which Constantine was present, held that Christ and God were of the same substance, but different (homoousion). The heretical Arians, on the other hand, held just as forcefully that Christ and God were of different substances, but the same (homoiousion). Like us, Gibbon marvels at how people were prepared to sacrifice their own lives for the sake of a single diphthong: as Gibbon says himself, ‘I cannot forbear reminding the reader that the difference is almost invisible to the nicest theological eye’. And that’s before we even start discussing the Holy Ghost. No wonder Julian found comfort in the arms of Jupiter and Apollo. Julian’s death led to a revival of Christianity, and Theodosius finally outlawed many of the practices of paganism, such as the sacrifice of live animals. Gibbon, being a Protestant of his times, says that the Church became corrupted by the worship of saints and relics — idolatry by the backdoor:

The religion of Constantine achieved, in less than a century, the final conquest of the Roman Empire: but the victors themselves were insensibly subdued by the arts of their vanquished rivals.

The main political event was the Battle of Hadrianople in 378, in which the Romans were utterly crushed by a force of Goths — it didn’t even need to go to penalties. The Emperor Valens died in the encounter. Although the Roman Empire wasn’t instantly dissolved as a result, the psychological effect was greater than the body count. Gibbon, however, cautions us against the outpourings of those who said that the ravages of the Goths left the country bare not only of people and crops but of birds, beasts and even fish:

Could it even be supposed that a large tract of country had been left without cultivation and without inhabitants, the consequences might not have been so fatal to the inferior productions of animated nature. The useful and feeble animals, which are nourished by the hand of man, might suffer and perish if they were deprived of his protection; but the beasts of the forest, his enemies or his victims, would multiply in the free and undisturbed possession of their solitary domain. The various tribes that people the air or the waters are still less connected with the fate of the human species; and it is highly probable that the fish of the Danube would have felt more terror and distress from the approach of a voracious pike than from the hostile inroad of a Gothic army.

Everything, then, in proportion — Gibbon’s salutary warning resonates with modern arguments which say (for example) that the interest we must assuredly have in extinction of species, or climate change, are not best served by emotively worded warnings of calamity, emergency or imminent disaster. Once again, Gibbon’s attitude seems so contemporary, that I was brought up short by how little this enlightened eighteenth-century writer knew of the natural world outside Europe. His discussion of the Huns suggests that his knowledge of  eastern Asia was sketchy; his ignorance of anything to do with sub-Saharan Africa, profound. This is shown in his illustration of a supposedly African ape, taken from Buffon’s Histoire naturelle, of an orang-utan (the spread pictured above), which is a native not of Africa, but of south-east Asia. Gibbon’s confusion is perhaps not surprising. Although orangs were known in the 17th century, chimpanzees only became known to European science in the 1770s – when Gibbon was writing his treatise. Gorillas were first formally described in the 19th century. As for the lineaments of Roman history, the bare bones of it, if not necessarily the interpretation, have presumably remained much the same since Gibbon’s time, and I’d contend that few have ever written about it with such style.

Screenshot 2022-08-24 at 09.02.03Miriam Margolyes: This Much Is True Miriam Margolyes is one of our best-known and most versatile character actors who might be said to have (as one character in Jurassic Park describes another) ‘a deplorable excess of personality’. Her overwhelming presence, which reminds me of some of my more formidable and ferocious mishpocha, crushes anything in its path. So much so that reading this memoir is rather like watching a road accident as it happens: transfixed in horrified fascination at the unfolding carnage, you can do nothing to stop it. I do hope for her sake that she had the text suitably picked over by her lawyers, as she says some very salty things about people who are still alive, and, possibly, litigious. It’s also scatological and even pornographic to a degree that I cannot help feel is somewhat affected. So if you allow younger readers, bewitched by the author’s association with the ‘Harry Potter’ universe (she played one of the teachers at Hogwarts in two of the films), to read this (and why shouldn’t you?) be prepared to answer some very awkward questions.

UntitledMary Ann Shaffer and Annie Barrows: The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society  There is a tradition of novels being cast as a collection of letters or journal entries, from 64 Charing Cross Road, via Les Liaisons Dangereuses to, well, Dracula. Mix in a story in which the main character dominates while not actually being present (Rebecca) and you’d have something altogether meatier than this entertaining if fairly predictable romance. It’s  about an author seeking inspiration who finds herself on Guernsey just after World War II, following in the footsteps of the absent character who created the titular society on a whim to get out of being questioned by the Nazi occupiers of the island. In my humble opinion, descriptions of Nazi atrocities in such flowery fare do no honour to the victims of such horrors. I have to say that this is not my usual reading — I was persuaded to read it by Offspring2, and after seeing a recent Magic Lantern adaptation. I am sorry to say that I’ve been rather spoiled by Gibbon. After The Decline and Fall Etcetera Etcetera everything else feels bland.

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Celebrations are in Order

A Level results are out, and students are now either celebrating, or sitting in misery having had their worst fears confirmed. Cambridge colleges, such as my own, will be assessing whether or not we’ve hit our multiple targets – by subject, by the various widening participation metrics and, of course, by gender. When I arrived in the College, the gender balance was not good. As a College whose statutes require 70% of its students and fellows to be in the STEM disciplines (broadly defined), in line with Churchill’s own wishes to found a college resembling MIT, that had perhaps not seemed so surprising to some. But, to me, the figure of 28% women that the 2015 intake of students comprised, seemed frankly not good enough.  For the last couple of years and now, as I understand (things aren’t quite finalised yet) once more this year, we have managed a much healthier, near equal balance of numbers.

That is as it should be, but this academic year about to start marks a different and significant milestone in our history regarding women: the 50th anniversary of their first admission to the College. Churchill was the first of the historically all-male colleges (in either Oxford or Cambridge) to vote to admit women. 1972 (the year after my own arrival in Cambridge, at Girton) saw it and two other colleges, Clare and Kings, admit limited numbers. I believe in Churchill the number was around 30, out of an overall entering cohort of around 135.  Those women may have felt ‘special’, but they certainly also felt outnumbered (made worse by the fact the two years above them would of course have been purely male).

I met some of these pioneers a month or so back when the 1972 matriculands were back to celebrate their 50th anniversary. I didn’t get a chance to quiz them in great detail about their experiences, although I certainly hope that some will be recording their oral histories of those times for the record. Nevertheless, it was clear they had been very conscious at the time of the lack of numbers of women around them, and were delighted to hear that the College was of a very different composition now.

Anybody who has found themselves in a tiny minority in a group will be aware there is likely to be a slight associated discomfort. Be it a man in a knitting group or a slimmers’ meeting (and I have met men who’ve been in both situations) or a woman in an engineering or physics lecture, feeling ‘other’ is hard to avoid. Whether or not there is any intention to exclude, it can end up happening anyhow simply due to discussion topics that are of interest to the majority not necessarily being of interest to you. I think you need at least a third of the minority gender for this effect to cease to be obvious.

I have felt the difference an increase in the number of women in a group makes in my role as ‘head of house’ (the collective noun for college heads). When I started as Master in 2014, around a third were women, but I think we all felt slightly uncomfortable and discouraged from expressing opinions when we were gathered together by the atmosphere around, and sometimes pointed comments were made when we tried. In formal meetings none of us (male or female) was addressed by name but as ‘the Master of Churchill College’ etc, which I found unfriendly and unnecessarily stiff. For a newcomer it all felt somewhat alien. Over the years since, more women have come in. Somehow things have become much more relaxed and women’s words are now heard as much as men’s. It feels as if this is down to the increasing numbers of us – currently it’s pretty close to 50:50 ­– but there is no control experiment, so the change could simply arise from the specific individuals involved. After all, the overall balance has shifted away from their being primarily academics, and that might also be relevant.

For those first women in the College, how hard did they find it to fit in? In lecture rooms and practical classes, there had been women present for years, coming from the three all-women’s colleges, but only in tiny proportions. I remember thinking I just had to get on with it if I was the only woman in the room during my student years. With 3 colleges each admitting, say, 30 students in 1972, that represented only about a 1% increase in the total number in the University, possibly nudging it over 10% for the first time. Women were still a rarity.

The sad thing is, though, that in a subject like Physics, the numbers may have increased from a mere 10% in my day to the giddy heights of, perhaps, 25% in a good year in Cambridge now that all colleges are mixed (excluding Newnham and Murray Edwards, which remain female-only). But our schools still manage not to encourage numbers of girls in equal numbers to boys when it comes to physics A level (and the same is true in reverse for English literature, the subject which saw the biggest overall drop in numbers in this year’s A Levels). As long as teachers believe, as the headteacher Katherine Birbalsingh appears to have done as she presented to the Commons Select Committee, that girls ‘just don’t like hard maths’ (or any other outdated stereotype), ensuring a College like mine, with its heavy STEM emphasis, has gender parity will always be a challenge.

Churchill is proud of its tradition as being a college ahead of the curve on matters such as this, and aims to be as inclusive as it can be. Although probably every college by now has its eyes firmly fixed on widening participation, we have a much longer tradition of admitting large numbers of state school students, right from its foundation. I am looking forward to our celebrations this year of the first admission of women, knowing so many of them have gone on to do spectacular things in the wider world.

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What I Did In My Summer Holidays

You’ll have read in these annals that the Gees have acquired a camper van, specifically a 1995 Mazda Bongo. After tootling around in it locally, the time came for its first Sea Trial, as it were. So one Friday during ferocious heat we drove it across country, from Cromer, 319 miles westward to Carmarthenshire, for a long weekend. As well as giving the van a shakedown this allowed us to visit relatives we’d meant to visit in 2019 until you-know-what happened.

UntitledAlthough we arrived in a somewhat wilted state after eight hours on the road, as attested by the architecturally wayward state of the awning when I erected it (see picture) the Bongo scarcely broke a sweat during the journey.

On the first night Mrs Gee slept in the fold-out ‘rock’n’roll’ bed in the van, but I was keen to try the pop-up tent in the roof. This was OK, except whenever I turned over, the whole van shook. On the plus side it showed that the van has excellent suspension. For the remaining two nights I slept much more happily on the ground inside the awning.

UntitledWe never worked out how to use the inbuilt gas burner, which was OK as we much preferred to brew outside on a camping gaz stove. I also couldn’t work out how to get the water pump to work — the one that pumps water from the jerry can stowed in a rear compartment into the tap in the sink next to the (unused) gas burner. I discovered why — a plug had come loose. I fixed it… neglecting to check that the tap inside was off, and pointing into the sink. Neither was true, and we had a minor flood in which one of the internal lights got fritzed. Oh well.

We also learned that despite its somewhat wilted appearance, the awning did actually stay up when we disconnected it and drove the Bongo to the pub… and was still erect, if not exactly tumid, on our return. Result!

UntitledWe had a lovely break, during which we caught up with our relations and met some very friendly indigenes (see picture) but the time came to depart. By Monday the weather had broken somewhat, and keen to avoid the horrendous roadworks on the M5 motorway, we decided to try the scenic route, driving through mid-Wales until we popped out in the West Midlands in the general direction of Herefordshire. The charming and domesticated hills and valleys of Carmarthenshire slowly gave way to the altogether more wild and rugged terrain of Powys. The road between Llandovery and Builth Wells climbed up and up into the kind of  landscape one usually only sees in TV commercials for performance cars. It was only here that the 2.5-litre diesel engine of the Bongo met a challenge, but mainly because I was unused to the gear-changing characteristics of the automatic gearbox.

We arrived safely home to find that the Offspring had minded the shop with quiet efficiency. Only later did we realise that this was the first break Mrs Gee and I had enjoyed together since the last millennium. The only thing amiss with the Bongo is a certain intermittency of the electrics that winds the windows up and down, so it’s now back in the garage for a tweak. More adventures await.

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