I’m in a real exercise slump at the moment. After the exertion of the ride down to Seattle, and all the training I was doing before that, I thought “I’ve worked hard for a long time and I deserve a rest as a reward. I won’t do any exercise for a few days”. Suddenly weeks have passed, I’m stuck in a pattern, and I feel like a slob*.
Unfortunately, this is a recurring pattern for me – and not just with exercise. For example, I went on a very strict diet for a few months before my wedding. When it was all over, I thought “I’ve deprived myself for a long time and I deserve to indulge myself as a reward. I’ll eat whatever I like for a few days”. Suddenly weeks had passed, I was stuck in a pattern, and I felt fat.
This is bad and self-destructive and needs to stop.
But what to do? I don’t want to never allow myself any rewards, ever – but once I start to indulge myself, I find it very, very difficult to stop. Any excuse becomes a good excuse, even though I know I’ll feel a hundred times better if I tell myself “no it’s not too hot / too windy / too much hassle, just go for a run already!” or “you’ll regret the chips, ask for the salad instead!”
Why must my bad habits be so much harder to break than the good ones?!
Why can’t I find some middle ground between “training all the time” and “being a slob”??!!
Ah well, at least there’s no chance of me falling into the same trap at work. Rewards, rest, and self-indulgence? HA!!! The Sentient Grant of DOOM may be submitted, but all that means is that it’s time to catch up on all the other work that got put on the back burner during the frenzy!
*I’m still cycling to work and back, which is better than nothing but not nearly enough.